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Choosing the Past or the Future

Mystic Tourist — Mon, 28 May 2012 14:07:51 +0000

As renewal makes another attempt to get my attention and I consider inventing myself again, the shards, bits and pieces of the life I have broken, against the wall I call the future, lie scattered about. When life falls apart it is along the same familiar lines and then I wonder to fit it back together, a little differently, letting some of the pieces live in the past. I know the future is for remembering and I can only carry the past into it when I make it the same thing. If ever we are stuck it is only because the past we carry is not the future we remember. As I look at my life, from wherever I stand, I see what lies before me, whichever way I turn it is the future that I see. Do I choose the promise of the future or stay mired in the false familiarity of bits and pieces selected from my past? The wall against which I have broken my life is just the stuff from my past that will not fit in my future. Will I climb that mountain and put it behind me? Will I make my claim and bring this future, familiar and known, into the past making it familiar and known? The echo of my past, the most enduring loudest things I did there beg me to let them go and in so doing remind me of their reality enticing their renewal. The new me, the future I remember, awaits my choice.

The Guidance of Error

Mystic Tourist — Fri, 25 May 2012 14:04:54 +0000

I have goals, I choose habits and behaviors to realize them. Goals produce results and the accompanying habits and behaviors mark the landscape with my path. As a mystic there is a singular overriding goal that drives me; Divinity or to live the divine life. I believe in providence and appointment, I think that life has purpose and it is tied to the rules of providence and appointment. I find that in my life mysticism is something I can not escape. It dominates me and everything in my life is produced by how I deal with it. I have tried to destroy it. I have nurtured it. I have tried to ignore it. Beyond a doubt my life is best when I have nurtured it.

In my life I have done things that forge a person contrary to my goal. I made choices that betrayed my purpose. There have been times when that was the intent and others when I did it in error. I made a poor choice. Providence and appointment are what guide me back, they are as the marks of origin, an indicator not of what I contain but of what I am. It is these marks that are the most prominent impression guiding my life. I am a mystic.

The rules of providence and appointment do not change. Like providence and appointment themselves they are constant. That I exist, that I am is providence. What I am and what exists is providence. How I am is a different matter and represents another constant, choice. Choice creates me, how I am. It creates a force that is spiritual and depending on my choice my spiritual community is determined. It is that community that enforces my choice. Good choice populates my life with spirits that are light, they tend to be translucent or transparent. Poor choice populates my life with spirits that are dark. These spirits can not exist in the light. They are that which is naught. In the light these can not pretend and misrepresent because they are seen to be what is naught. They are only able to influence and they use that to draw us in and keep us in the dark. If I try to leave the dark they present themselves as familiar attitudes, emotions, behaviors. Should I pick any of these up I am drawn back in. It is usual for these to remain unseen against the background of darkness and black. Good spirits work the same way and they represent everything of durable value.

How we are creates where we are. When we keep our self in the dark we create that which is naught and partake of all that has been created in that fiction. It is entirely dependent on our will, on our choice. The dark spirits and what they do only exist because we want them to, even when we are ignorant of that desire. Good spirits can go anywhere and rescue us from our error. These exist with or without our choice but our association and familiarity with them is determined by choice. Their transparency makes them difficult to see and if they are seen it is because they choose to present themselves, like a surprise. They populate our life when we make good choices and work to draw us toward them to make a place, even where it had been dark, where they can be known. That is appointment and it is constant.

Purpose. The purpose I am charged with is to keep my appointment. It is why I exist. What is your purpose?

Spirits of Darkness Spirits of Light

Mystic Tourist — Wed, 23 May 2012 14:47:05 +0000

While Devils, Demons and Satans influence us we are distracted. There are better spirits. So long as we lend shelter to Demons and Satans, by maintaining our relations with our personal Devil or Devils, ignorance prevails. These spirits can only exist in the shadowy world of ignorance where we pretend we do not see them. We have to make that agreement with them and then every subsequent agreement gains instant ignorance. We are all agreed, that our condition, as human, will include this definition. So long as we support this agreement all spirits are affected by it.

I have long been content to keep my knowledge of spirits private. Some people believe in such and others are sure people who make such claims are being dishonest or they are not well. That there is some sort of psychological deficiency. This blog has emboldened me. I have seen these spirits so believing they exist is not much of a stretch. What else am I to do when they make themselves known? I suppose I could imagine that I am not well but I know that I am. Better to ask just what is going on. That is the path I have chosen and so I write about my observation. About what I have seen.

It is easy to slip back into ignorance. There are many persuasions and encouragements. I have done it. The adhesive quality of ignorance assures that any contact with it begins to entangle us immediately. It is a choice and when things are difficult it seems the easiest way. Admittedly I have never been entirely free of ignorance, it is a project that takes time and commitment. I will compare it to a building project, a temple if you will or another favorite, a path and a narrow gate. A habit of choice that reveals a condition, a way or a place to be.

I am working to restore my standing with the good spirits. With Angels, Ascendant Beings, Deva, whatever else is there. I see the shadows roaming my spiritual landscape inviting me to give chase and I must choose to let them go if I would stand in the light and make good spirits my spiritual companions. It is real work but everything spiritual is work, until the temple is complete or the journey realized. It is just our choice and choice is magic. It does create. At least that has been my observation. I have had that experience.

The Mystic Has No Clothes

Mystic Tourist — Tue, 22 May 2012 14:13:57 +0000

Devils congregate, called into existence in support of my reliance that things should be static. That no change should ever take place. Devils have long populated the experience we share, they preceded our birth and have agreements with those whom we know and love. When we become upset with another it perverts what would otherwise be love and a form begins to take shape. We assign these forms a place and they begin a life of their own. Unless we choose to redress our agreement with these forms they grow. They exist in a reality created by our ignorance. We want to think someone else made us angry or upset us, that our problems are in some measure the fault of others. It is a reality that owes its existence to ignorance. It is a community of ignorance that is only possible by our shared agreement. So long as we allow ignorance to exist the trouble it harbors remains. Everything that lurks in the darkness, I have created, remains, building and multiplying, networking and conspiring to create permanence. None of these do this except by our consent and when I give my consent it is just one voice in a chorus of consent. This is the realm of ignorance and denial that we collectively agree does not exist and that is the wellspring of troubles. Even if one of us abandons the franchise the rest remain invested. This is the challenge I have always had. Why bother? I know all that separates any one of us from what we have created is ignorance. More importantly the chorus of ignorance, where we collectively pretend and agree to accept things as they are naught and ridicule those who know the truth. When all is said and done none of us is innocent, we all know the truth. In order to fashion the masquerade born of ignorance it is required. We also are in the dark, and, while there we pretend ignorance. There is nothing there that would not be seen in the light and so it is not so frightening. This ignorance however is very sticky and to be in a community defined by it, while living without it, requires an unusual state. Just as ignorance was created the same magic creates its absence. Devils are spirits and they create Demons and Satans. These are simple spirits that can only exist in the shadowy world of ignorance that we create. What is this magic that creates this place and the spirits that populate it? It is choice. Simple and constant. That we choose is what does not change. If I would walk with the better spirits it is just my choice that takes down the pretense, the wall of ignorance, and I stand in the light. Why is it so difficult? The secret is in the cloth I fashion for myself. It is made of ignorance.

False Responsibility

Mystic Tourist — Sat, 19 May 2012 14:54:42 +0000

Agreements made in the dark perpetuate reliance on and approval of false experience. Let me compare what we experience to watching a movie, the movie is real. Reality is much the same way, being real only qualifies it as something we experience. When we ignore the spiritual beings that populate our experience it gives the spirits that thrive in darkness their existence. Without the darkness, our ignorance creates, they lack the fundamental requirement for their existence, the dark. Once we create this shadowy reality the mechanisms to support it fall automatically into place. It is the light, of course, that makes the false reality possible. Much like the light at the movie theater. We sit in the dark and stare, enjoying the distraction.

The Devil You Know

Mystic Tourist — Fri, 18 May 2012 14:47:43 +0000

Spirits of good purpose, where can I find them? The first place to look is where they are naught. It is good to remember providence when embarking on any quest as providence is the source of confidence. In looking for spirits providence is particularly helpful especially in areas where good spirits are naught. There is no place, where awareness, consciousness and sentiency exist, that spirits are absent. While I think some of us do walk with good spirits and ignorance , ignorance is the preferred realm of harmful spirits. Some of us walk in the light of grace and ignorance serves a less sinister purpose allowing the good spirits to populate our surrounding. Grace is also a constant presence and so we each find its light in our life. Ignorance is as a veil of differing density. When we allow it to become dense enough it is denial. Ignorance always filters light to some degree, but denial blocks it entirely. Goodness is a vague term unless I define it. Goodness is associated with grace and providence. With God. All that is good is in the light or gives light.

When we harbor darkness in our thoughts it begins to bundle together the qualities of darkness and block the light. There are spirits that populate the darkness and those spirits crave permanence. Ignorance makes it easy to pretend these spirits do not exist while we forge agreements to assure the darkness these spirits crave. Our personal caches of darkness develop chamber-like reservoirs that harbor dark spirits and behaviors. These are what devils are and it is usual for people to acquaint themselves with them while pretending devils do not exist, or that they are not like this. The spirits that inhabit the devils we create build a web of agreement with the human community propagating ignorance and denial and our collective purchase of it. These spiritual beings have no durable quality. They are as a fiction that we entertain as a reality while pretending they are naught.

The personal devils we create distract us from our acquaintance of good spirits. The good spirits live in the light and we construct darkness inventing an imaginary separation from them. In the dark we imagine all sort of terrible things about what lies there while pretending we can not see it. We know full well what is there, it is required in order to make our agreement to ignore it. We find the beings that live there frightening and ignorance serves its purpose. Demons, Devils and Satans are what populate the darkness we create. They exist in darkness and do not like to be seen. To dismiss them we must meet them and dissolve our agreement with them. They are a fiction and our good spirits await our dismissal of them.

Mirror Image

Mystic Tourist — Tue, 15 May 2012 14:42:41 +0000

I will write again about the fourth chakra using the mirror simile. I am not a scholar but rather a mystic. I have made a very brief and casual study of the chakra’s and did read a few paragraphs about the Kundalini, two and a half or three decades ago. I am mystic and I do what I call mysticism’s. I discover that there is something I am to do and set about trying to see what it is. From there I will pull one word at a time from the void and write it down until an idea begins to take shape. It is only when I finish the work that it is clear what I am doing. It is the same way I write this blog. Years ago I did a mysticism of the seven primary chakra’s. They are the focus of my spiritual work today and this blog is about that work.

The fourth chakra is as a mirror. A mirror we can step into and control. The integrity born of truth is the secret the allows me to take this step. As I gaze into the mirror unable to secure my passage the images it reveals show me the way. The way I am and the burden that anchors me on the outside of my destiny. The burden, or wealth, that will not make this passage are the lies that I have told myself. The falsehoods about how I am and who is to blame. I am free to learn the lessons the mirror reveals and discover my true nature, dressing the image I see to resemble that image. It is this work that gains passage. When the image I see is true I become the image in the mirror and the fourth chakra becomes a passage, no longer a mirror. This is the magical nature of who we are.

Once I remember my future, my destiny, letting go of the false-comforts that restrain me I am free to make how I am be who I am. While my gaze is fixed on the image I only see how I am and who I am provides the image, to teach me, from the other side of the mirror. This is providence. Should I choose to make the image, seen here in the temporal world, that of my teacher from the other side of the fourth chakra, the higher chakra’s reign into human form and spiritual life has a temporal reality.

That is the life of this mystic. Just now I am still working on it and that of course creates paradox. It is working on it that prevents or prohibits success. At some point I must accept that there is no work to do, that destiny is now and how I am is who I am.

The Spirit of Ignorance is Denial

Mystic Tourist — Mon, 14 May 2012 15:00:23 +0000

In the world of spirit there are many inhabitants and we produce much of what populates our spiritual experience. It is typical for people to ignore the spiritual realm and ignorance, when held over time, always produces denial. It is understandable that people are confused about an aspect of our experience that so many are certain does not exist and others accept on faith alone. People have direct experience of what is spiritual and so it is a component of our shared reality. Due to ignorance and its inevitable denial, our spiritual experience is controversial. Faith is of little help because one of its prerequisites is that it should not be questioned. Faith is usually associated with religion and the requirement that the tenants of the religion be accepted on faith. It is understandable that many of us find this to be disingenuous and dishonest. Faith is very powerful. If you have religious faith it is likely you are part of a religious community. There is great support in community. Faith also gives confidence to those who exercise it. Confidence is very powerful, it makes a big difference in everything a person does.

I prefer to have my confidence without faith. I see faith as unnecessary and cumbersome. Confidence does not need it. I think faith is often used as a shield. We can know and be certain, we can be right, without looking, without seeing, without questioning. It gives us permission to keep ignorance and denial firmly in place. My experience of the world of spirit does not need faith. Spirits populate my world.

Ignorance gives birth to a spirit and its name is Denial. This is a very busy spirit and it is able to represent itself in countless ways. It is also a very popular spirit that multiplies and populates the spiritual experience we share. In living a spiritual life this spirit, and all of its ramifications, must be addressed. An agreement must be made if progress is to be realized. The popularity of this spirit and the work that it does in our spiritual experience makes certain that each of us has an existing agreement with it. Over time we compound and fix these agreements forming a matrix that intends to keep us in place.

My passage to spiritual living, here in human form, requires that I attend to the agreements I have with all spirits. Each of us is in constant communication with spirits and so we each have active agreements with them. What sort of agreement do you have with the spirits that populate your world?

The Habits of Being

Mystic Tourist — Sat, 12 May 2012 16:17:31 +0000

Projection Project

The habits of my being are comprised of three rules; objectivity, incentive and approval. These rules are applied to everything I am, creating how I consider what I allow myself to be. I use these rules to reveal or to hide my true being.

The intimacy of a woman, with child, is the most fundamental conversation. There is no need for words but the mechanisms required to structure our self are hard at work. We begin the process of self-representation while entirely dependent on another. Our sense of objectivity is obscured by the extremely subjective nature of our circumstance. It takes time to grow and realize our independent nature. Even when we think we have done this the intimacy of the dependency that we experienced in the womb and as a baby, toddler etc stays with us. We first fashion our tools of identity, of self, at this early time and they are the underlying tide, the conversation with community that gives us our appointment of self recognition. We project through a lens of disposition and attitude the person others see and they in turn reflect it back at us. Words are secondary to this process but this is the conversation we are having. This is communication. It is very real but real need not be true.

Objectivity having been obscured by the subjective nature of conception, birth and childhood our sense of incentive is also skewed. For anything at all to happen, approval is granted and we create how we are. How, for this topic, can be considered in terms of value. The value we place on our experience creates the exchange that presents our self. It is the things that I value, habits, behaviors, beliefs that I pin myself to. Even if these are of a poor nature, bad for me, if I value them, choose them, they come to be the way I fix my self. The conversation, silent and wordless, by which we present our self emphasizes the importance of community. Community can be as a siren tempting us to build our self away from our true self. Should I decide to discover my true self and build my identity based on that, I only need objectivity. Another word for objectivity is compassion. Compassion does not exist without objectivity and compassion is absolute because it only exists in a measure that is inexhaustible. It is this absolute quality that makes possible the expression of my true self because truth is also absolute. No matter the challenge truth remains unchanged. It is omnipotent.

We also project the imaginings we craft of other people and these images are influential. While these imaginings portend to be about others what are in fact about is our own considerations which are in turn reflected back to us reaffirming our own craft. We have imaginings about all manner of things and project images that we then expect accurately present the true content of experience. We have a community of consent and form broad agreements. This is how we craft reality and while it is true that we imagine things to be a certain way and form broad agreements our imaginings do not need to be truth-based. I expect that largely the truth is lost in our imaginings and consent. The experience we imagine is peppered with incentive and reward for approval but what is lost is objectivity. Our true nature, which is obscured is also absolute. Regardless of what we foist upon it, it remains unchanged, unharmed, as truth can suffer no injury. Objectivity is marked by what is absolute and so it is as a key that can unlock the narrow gate and reveal our true nature.

Soul Awakening

Mystic Tourist — Tue, 08 May 2012 14:27:58 +0000

Thought can bind me in place. It is a spiderweb like matrix and I become fixed unable to refresh my perspective. Behavior is born of this condition and I develop a sense of certainty and comfort. We have common thought and perception that we share forming communities of support. New ideas are captured by this stickiness and in turn secure us in place. It is usual, I think, for people to be in this condition. We are known to use imagination to dress our self with a sense of independence all the while being quite stuck. As I work to extricate myself from my sticky comfort the stickiness and its persuasion would frustrate me. I need a new way to consider mobility if I am to navigate the human community while avoiding its adhesive persuasion. This new way of course would only be new to me as nothing can be or is new. The reconciliation of my temporal self with the boundless untethered embrace of spirit produces the soul in its temporal form. My soul is immune to the sticky nature of human preconception and imposition. It only knows truth and it is in truth that I am free of the adhesive condition of being human.