I think all, or most of us, have an inner language that is repetitive. Repetition is fundamental. Our biology is repetitive. Our heartbeat, respiration, the replication and replacement of cells, etc. The planet’s rotate and we call it time. Even in what seems chaos I am sure we can find the fingerprint’s of repetition. Habit is what we do, what we are.

The word’s we speak inside our head have a profound impact on how we are.

There is, I think, a core language, a few word’s, that we repeat to ourself’s over and over again. This dialogue is as a pair of glasses that determines our perception of time, place and self. For each of us this mantra is personal and, I expect, largely ignored. It is also a fundamental block of how we find ourself’s the way we are. The nature of habit is to perpetuate what is, in the face of the constant evolution of reality. With the subtle mantra of repetitive thought we choose to control or be controled.

The circular nature of this constant repetition is similar to electromagnetic’s or gravity. It draws to us a collection of thought and action. Clutter. We can quiet ourself’s and listen to our mantra’s. We can untangle the clutter and separate how we are from who we are. It is a serious process and we consider it difficult. The burden is in the clutter. The true difficulty is in continuing in a way that does not serve us well.

This returns me to a recurring theme. Doing what seems best. If I consider the role of providence in negotiating our personal difficulties, I would say, difficulty, is intended to focus our attention on what is best. I will use truth to make an example.

Truth is never injured by falsehood. A lie, or falsehood, would replace the truth. Except for the truth it could not exist. It is about the truth that it structures itself. It leans against the truth and we are confused by its proximity to it. Often the tenant’s of right and wrong are at work. Due to the nature of right – It’s insistence on wrong – I think it is rarely what is best. The decision to do what is best solves the corruption of right; wrong.

Regarding the clutter generated by our private mantra, habitual thought, I think the same dynamic applies. If we quiet ourself and consider what is best we may actually find ourself doing it. This is what eliminates the unnecessary burden of  clutter and facilitates the clarity of our sight. It enables to see more clearly what is true. Even if we can not articulate it, the rule of truth, becomes more clear in our life. It becomes its own articulation.

All that is can only represent truth. Even what would harm it must allude to it. Doing what is best has this attribute. It is as my religion.

The Mystic Tourist

Broad Terms Poor Definition

In my last post, “Providence and Appointment”, I used broad term’s without clear definition about how I consider them. That is due in part to the brief nature of blog posting. I mentioned circumstance as always being complete. I wrote that the completion presented opportunity. I wrote of disposition, providence and appointment. Today I will lend these term’s some definition.

In a way circumstance is providence. It is how and where we find ourself’s at any given time. I consider circumstance all the time in my practice of mysticism. It is a broad term, but for me personally, it is not vague.  It is complete because it is how and where we find ourself’s: There is nothing absent from what does make up any given circumstance. It represents or presents, opportunity, because whatever we might do, opportunity, we find the resources for it in our circumstance.

Disposition. Again I consider disposition all the time. It is a broad term, but for me, not at all vague. It is the color of our circumstance, the tone, the vibration, ect. It draws to us that which is like it, or at least, our circumstance, has the look and feel, of our disposition. Disposition is resilient. We are not always mad or always happy. There are aspects of our disposition that, by habit, are less prone to change. I look to these habit’s and their subtle structure’s as a way to cause  the circumstance I want. I look to bring about a change that seems better or best.

Intervention or orchestration by God. This is what people generally have in mind when they think of providence. That is close enough for this post. I consider doing what is best as the way to identify providence. I believe that in circumstance there is always that appointment, the best thing to do. Often I think the best thing has to do with our disposition. If we change the way we feel about things we may well see a different opportunity. We certainly will feel differently. Even if that is the only change to our circumstance, it is dramatic.

Happy people are happy. Sad people are sad. Angry people are angry. It is our disposition. We choose this and in doing so we perpetuate it. The clutter that we generate due to the aspect’s of our disposition, that are static, habit, obscure the simple changes we might make, and, be the way we want. Providence is the constant presentation of the appointment to take care of that.

Providence, circumstance, appointment, disposition and choice. I use these to shape the person I am. They are as tool’s in my life of mysticism.

The Mystic Tourist

Providence and Appointment

As an empiric mystic I believe in providence. I believe circumstance is always complete and that completion presents opportunity. Disposition is fundamentally important as we build our success, and presently, it seems my most important concern.

Disposition allows us to craft our circumstance into any texture we like. It is as a pivot, or bearing, by which we perceive things the way we choose. One of the wonders of disposition is its complexity. We are always able to adjust it and create change.

Our disposition creates a collection, or clutter, due to its bearing. Providence assures that this clutter is manageable. Our inclination acts as a governor of disposition and doing what seems best is a good governor. There is a certain magic to disposition because, with it, we can arrange anything, as we want.

Disposition is complex and has a tendency to dilute what is best. This is true in particular when circumstance is difficult.

One function of providence is to bring forward what does serve us best.  Of providence there is the notion, that God, somehow manages this on our behalf. This is what I consider appointment. Working to do what is best brings this about and the true power lies in choice, regardless of providence. We notice the service of providence most, I think, when we consider it in times of difficult circumstance.

In regard to providence and appointment my mystic sensibility is this: The goal of mysticism is to complete appointment. My personal experience has been that when I attend to what does most need my attention, clutter becomes clarity. My expectation is that mysticism finds its fruition in enlightenment, due to the kept appointment. Providence is the constant presentation of appointment.

I am confidant we are all given appointment. Amazingly some few of us seem to keep them. I wonder if there might also be a collective measure of appointment. Could it be that in such a hybrid appointments are kept?

The Mystic Tourist

Four A.M.Strategy

In addition to developing this blog I am self-employed and my work is seasonal. Apparently I need less sleep and so my new work season brings with it a new strategy. At four a.m. it is quiet. I can drink my tea read the paper and am fresh enough to write.

The Mystic Tourist has been helpful to me personally. I really enjoy writing. I used the down-time of my off-season to educate myself about blogging and the learning is now the doing. The people at Word Press have been great. Tris Hussey was also a big help. I bought his book, How To Create Your Own Blog /Six Easy Project’s, and read it on my Kindle. I still have plenty of work to do tuning up the blog and setting up, The Mystic Tourist, to my agenda. I hope to secure additional advise next week so I am more comfortable moving forward. I do have a plan.

This past week was very busy as my business kicked into gear along with the season. The additional work kept me from posting. I expect my four a.m. strategy to solve the problem.

This post is to assure anyone who reads, The Mystic Tourist, of my commitment. Of course the obvious is true; Life tends to get in the way of what we think we are doing.

Faith or Confidence

Faith is a powerful application that lends the strength of confidence to those who use it. Confidence is the true strength of faith. We can have confidence without faith but not faith without confidence. I choose confidence over faith because faith demands that a person believe without question.

Belief without question is its own injury and the confidence, of faith, carries this with it. It allows people to deny the underling question’s and yet bring the strength of confidence to bear in their lives. If it happens that a person puts their faith in what is true, the injury of faith is muted, and confidence is true.

There are many people who know this kind of faith. For me personally, I like to ask the question’s, and faith does not work.

With confidence I am able to accept  Gods’ existance or not. I am confidant that no mater what I believe, thing’s remain as they are. I am free to believe in God, which I do. I do no religious thing, because, I have not found God there. Some people do.

I have lost confidence that someone else; past, present or future, should be my diplomat, in matter’s concerning God. God is available to all people always, or God does not exist.

Did God write a book? I know the tool’s used to write a book and who uses them. I have greater confidence in God than that.

The word of God. No hand writes it down. No eye reads it. No tongue speaks it. No ear hears it. None, escape it.

The Mystic Tourist

Miracle and Magic

Magic. Surely this is a topic beyond the reach of controversy. We dismiss magic out of hand because it is impossible. There is another possibility, magic is the natural law. We can consider  Wim Hof, The Iceman.

Recently Wim ran for a couple of hours in his shorts and nothing else. He was 200 kilometer’s north of the Arctic circle shirtless and barefoot. The severe  frostbite did not even cost him so much as a toe. He restored the circulation as well as the damaged tissue. Mr Hof then took on Everest in the same outfit. Wim Hof has a long list of similar accomplishment’s and has been the subject of rigorous scientific investigation.

Wim is an ordinary man and so then also is what he does. It is unusual for people to do these and similar things even though it is understood that we can. That we can be so ignorant that we deny our talent’s is what is extraordinary.

When we think of miracle and magic there seems to be an expectation that they violate or are outside of natural law. Of course natural law is not the subject of violation. I expect that what we are and what we do is limited by denial. Denial works more like magic than anything else because it allows us to believe what is not true with the certainty that it is.

It seems that  ignorance and denial are the true magic. It is with these that we fail to express the full compliment of our abilities.

The Mystic Tourist

Right and Wrong

Is there any true value to being right? Let us consider; who is right? What are the qualification’s? I am not much of a believer in being right because I believe the only qualification is to think that you are. It is worse than that. Right does not exist except for wrong. What is the point?

I am a bit of an odd duck here. I am a person of strong opinion, and, I am told, I sound like I think I am right. My mother would say I am dogmatic. I know people who agree. To be honest I feel as if I am right. In my head it goes like this: Obviously, I have an opinion, and the most anyone could surmise is that.

The truth, I think, self represents, and being right is a complete waste of time. It is as a trap where a person becomes unable to see things as they actually are. The only purpose seems to be to massage the ego’s of the person’s making the claim.

It is difficult to recover from the position of being right and so I choose to do what seems best. Truth is what being right pretends to be.  I can learn something and my ability to recognize the truth earns a correction. If  I thought I was right to begin with it makes the likelihood I would learn something more challenging. I can go through life doing what seems to me to be best allowing the truth to be its own witness without a care for being right.

It is easier to negotiate our place in the dark when we presume the truth can defend itself.

I think of right and wrong as being the same thing. I see it as a coin, one side right the other wrong. I see it as a worthless coin that makes a purchase in kind.

The Mystic Tourist

Compassion and Understanding

For me, God is what mysticism is about, and, as a mystic, I believe in God. My own experience with religion has discouraged me and so I look for God elsewhere. I do not believe God is escapable so I believe we find God where we are. There is no church or special club a person has to join and prayer, more than anything else, is simply the life we live.

Condemnation, punishment, persecution, these are human endeavour’s. All person’s are acceptable to God. The notion that God would single out a person or group for favor, or scorn, seems an absurdity to me. If a person could find themself separate from God I expect it could only be by determined cognizant willful intent. I imagine it would result in the loss of existence which itself seems impossible. It seems probable to me that the God most people would distance themselvs from does not exist except perhaps in our mind.

God is not accountable to us by our good works, by what we believe or by the religion we join. God does not punish us for failing in these areas. We are simply acceptable to God. The quest I think is to find ourselves acceptable to ourselves. Should we accomplish this simple task then we find, within ourselves, acceptance of God.

When I speak of God I am not making a referance to any particular doctrine as I expect that only God represent’s God. I do think there are certain qualifiers by which a person finds peace with God. The two that I have been able to trust are compassion and understanding. Compassion is such that it has a single measure. That measure is simply enough. It does not single out a person or a group as being more deserving than another. It finds it’s one measure enough for all or it is not there. The attribute of understanding is the same. Everything is understood. I believe the fact of existence reveals the underlying understanding. That is that nothing could organize itself well enough to exist except that there would first be understanding. The sensibilities of compassion and understanding allude to the absolute. Their attributes are such that they can only have a single measure. That measure is always inclusive and always enough.

These fundamentals of compassion and understanding are as the voice that guides ones footfall on the mystic path.

The Mystic Tourist

Christianity 101

I have on occasion educated myself on the history of Christianity. The person or perhaps more accurately the ideal of Christ is captivating. From my observation of known history I have no reason to believe that Jesus ever founded a church. Why would he?

What I do know is that Constantine sacked Rome and in the fourth century seems to have established the Christian Church. After installing himself as emperor Constantine ended the persecution of Christians. He insisted that the various Christian sect’s hobble together a unifying Christian Doctrine. The first Ecumenical Council at Nicaea in 325 did this. They did this and they also agreed on the New Testament.

The New Testament claim is controversial. As near as I can tell it is a technical matter. When were the book’s written, what group’s referenced them and when? It seem’s unlikely, knowing the nature of this council, that they did not decide on this particular collection known as The New Testament. It seems to me that they must have at least confirmed it.

It is easy to believe that Jesus existed because of the history. It is much harder to believe the doctrine. You have to believe, on faith, the doctrine tied to the text. I have to ask myself what came first? What about the usual suspect, motive? Miracle’s, that is another post but I do not have a problem with miracles. Consider this, in clinical trial’s placebos work 30% of the time.

It is the ogre  pretending to be God waiting to damn you to hell for joining the wrong religion that is hard to swallow.

Here is an article from The Guardian about placebo’s.   

Here is an article from P.B.S. About Constantine and Christianity. You can easily scan this article by scrolling to find whatever information might interest you.

There is a ton of information about Constantine and also placebos. Have fun!                            

The Mystic Tourist

2 / 1 / 2010 Mystic Tourist First Post

Mysticism is what I do and what I will blog about. I will be fifty-eight this year. It is my belief, that by circumstance,  I was born a mystic. Of course I did not realize it at birth but after seventeen years it was clear that mysticism is what dominates my life.

Being mystic is not so much a choice I made for myself as it is the way I have found myself. God is as a singular interest in my life. There seem’s a quality about God that is all-inclusive and so devotion to God allows that each relationship in life might reach its full measure.

Religion? I place my confidence in God. Even if  God does not exist I am good with that. Religion is the place I did not find God. I was born and raised Roman Catholic including ten year’s of parochial education. How and why does one separate the truth from the lies? Of religion, I have been cured.

It was this sensibility, when I was seventeen, that really upset me. I had no peer, no mentor and no literature to guide me. Having found myself  this way  I did not feel it was a choice and I  turned my rage against society and God. That lasted twelve year’s. It caused the complete ruin of my life three time’s.

In 1981 after a brawl at work that destroyed the company office as well as assorted public property, private property and my truck I found myself in jail once again. I had lived my life sure that attrition would take my life prematurely or that my reckless lifestyle would force God’s hand to do for me what I would not do myself. It was not working out. It seemed to me I had become what I was so angry about. It occurred to me that God might not intervene, attrition might not take me out and being what I was angry about was not a viable option for me. I changed. I decided to embrace the mysticism. I decided mysticism would prove its worth or run its course. Either way I would be able to get on with my life and leave the rage behind me.

I am an empiric mystic. I believe that God make’s an example, an expression and does represent Gods self. I believe that only by that does anyone come to know God, or God does not exist.

 The Mystic Tourist