Remembering The Future

As I wonder, considering fulfillment and its elusiveness, I see before me my past. The habits of my life, along with regrets and contentment’s. It is habit that determines where I keep my past, the habit of thought and behavior. The past is only at rest by honest appraisal of its importance. Be it a regret or contentment importance must be valued objectively if fulfillment is to be realized. When my past is before me, it only wants release, I am obliged to recognize its true importance, its release. Regret is always in the wrong place. A regret is never allowed to pass and it is a habit of thought that is regret. Habits of pride or self-importance are examples of how contentment is misplaced and what belongs behind me is instead an obstacle before me. The way I think and feel about things generate behavior that either fixes or releases the past. When the past is fixed it is as a barrier or an anchor but when it is a casual comfort or acceptance it is free to lend its definition and the future gains its complete promise.

It is in this way that the future is the past and I am able to remember the future. My past keeps me in line or sets me free, depending on where and how I keep it. When I choose fulfillment, in whole term, life’s fulfillment, enlightenment, I must first be at rest with my past. It is then that I can create or remember my future and it becomes my past. As long as I keep any part of my past before me it wants release and it is that release that sets me free to create a future independent of my past. Everything about life is habitual, all the mechanisms. It is usual to find a sync of habit that fits our culture and community and is accepted as normal. A habit that tethers and preserves status. I can also choose habit that is no less normal but is unusual. A habit that creates the future without replicating the past. The model for this habit is the future I create and I remember the future by creating it.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012

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4 thoughts on “Remembering The Future

  1. Okay, Michael, cool title.

    I highlighted:

    – A regret is never allowed to pass and it is a habit of thought that is regret.

    I like that.

    – When the past is fixed it is as a barrier or an anchor but when it is a casual comfort or acceptance it is free to lend its definition and the future gains its complete promise.

    I like this, too.

    – As long as I keep any part of my past before me it wants release and it is that release that sets me free to create a future independent of my past.

    Good thought.

    But can you give a specific example (make up a ‘story’, write a script) for:

    – The model for this habit is the future I create and I remember the future by creating it.

  2. No problem Vik,

    The phrase is a simple metaphor (for lack of a better word) for change. So long as I continue to do what I have been doing the past and the future, or the way I am, are the same. The tendency that is habit, particularly habit of thought, makes this a certainty. From early in life unsolved problems, issues of control for example, become outliers, a horizon before me and a habit of thought as well as behavior is developed to keep things in place. A feeble excuse for control. A tendency is developed that is carried into adult life. The most vexing part of change then are the subtleties, the issues around which I built the habit of my person. The sticks on which I hang the scarecrow that is my ego. The ego is not very big on change it thrives in the status quo. It wants to be who I am but it is not, it is how I am. This can be flipped and the ego restored to purpose. A tool for the service of my soul. The ego, of course, feels threatened by change. It has forgotten that change is its friend.

    In my life I have changed habits of thought and behavior on which the person known to the world of acquaintance is known. Whole new horizons open up and an entirely new dimension of self is realized. It is easy for me to see that the potential here is vast. Change is real work. Habits are stubborn and the person I built around the trials of childhood, the hardened shell I thought to protect myself with is a tough nut to crack. It is easy to reinforce the harden shell I once imagined protected me. It is like a garden. I work and work to clear out the weeds and then a distraction presents itself, life gets tough and the habits, or weeds, take over and I am left to do the work again. Yes I have been there and done that. Once I have cleared the garden again, I am working on it, I can nurture my soul with the result and perhaps I will have learned a more durable lesson this time.

    • I agree that we are most definitely creatures of habit and too often prisoners of them. This is why living in the present moment is so vital, although too many memories are encrusted with bad habits which continue to perpetuate into all of the future present moments. When I was in my late teens I wrote a simple poem:

      The past is not for living but only reflecting
      Tomorrow’s memories lived today;

      And when aeons from millennia come
      Centuries and decades and years;

      And months from all the weeks
      Days and hours and minutes;

      From seconds and eternities come
      Gods and You and I.

      Time — what has it left me?
      Perhaps only that which can be remembered

      or
      a tear
      or
      many more
      for
      a smile.

      Okay, now it’s also “Time” to get back into the spirit of gardening!

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