I recently read The Past is Your Light Map by Jennifer Hoffman. I read it at Shift Frequency, a site run by Gillian Grannum. I really like her site. I find Jennifer’s blog too imposing but the post I read did inspire me and I have provided the link.
I was reminded of a method of healing I have used before but whose application had escaped me. I spent a few years doing regression therapy. Using a swing rod I would divine a past event that carried irritability and difficulty into my day-to-day living. I would do a simple reconstruction of the event and then dissolve it with apology and forgiveness. For a number of years I did this to manage my well-being. If I did not do this my health would collapse. After a time I came to see that the past is consequential in a way that perpetuated the injuries from the past. The injurious nature of my past created future fates that then drew me toward them. In my experience these fates were far fewer than the past injuries that created them but none the less injurious. Using the same methods of divination I would divine these fates and dissolve them as a way to repair my health and maintain well-being.
As near as I can tell my work with regression and fate is complete, however, the tendency to create these conditions remains and I fell into that condition. That creates the spiral, or gravity, that perpetuates difficulty and eventually the work needs to be done all over again. It is like turning off a light and then complaining about not being able to see. It is caused by ignorance. Any act of ignorance causes its growth. It is adhesive and the smallest step in this direction is immediately problem-some.
Jennifer’s blog post gave me a way to see what I could do differently. The word ‘hate’ has been a plague in my thought for some time. It is self-hate and of course it collects. It has been hard to see where it comes from and how to be rid of it. It is from my past and its gravity has had me stuck. I have worked to replace it by thinking love when the word, hate, shouts at me. So far not so good, until now. I realized that when irritability reared up the word hate would shout at me and the irritability was tied to my past, to an attitude attached to an incident in the past. Now I see the mechanism and that the irritability just wants love. I divine what the irritability is about and broadcast love for it into my future dissolving its gravity and creating the future I want from the past. The past and the future? They are the same thing and I am always free to create the future I want, now.
Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012