These days, as I have blogged my life back into existence, have been very powerful. My grip of resistance is loosening and the path becoming more clear. My willingness to open my life to public view has long been the magic I considered taboo. It is also the cup from which I knew I must drink. How to do what I will not do has been my dilemma. The answer is always the same to such conundrums. It is in just doing it. There is no other way and so it is really a question of how to get there. It is in honestly asking the question, how, that we one day find that we have answered it, by the fact of doing it. I do believe there is great magic in crossing this threshold. The once powerful pieces of my life are suddenly reenergized as I choose to make my self known. Like turning on a switch. It has been there on the wall the whole while and I have been instructed of the importance of turning it on. Choosing not to do it I pretend to be confused about what is holding me back. This I think has been the piece I would not put into place. Now I can once again reach Spirit Gate, my chakras fill with Justice, Light and I wonder what lessons will be revealed. (You can read about Light, Justice and Spirit Gate in my recent post Kundalini The Pillar Of Appointment).
There are some things I have wanted to learn and now it seems that they must be learned in public. I have thought to put the cart in front of the horse in this regard. I have wanted to get everything done before standing in the open. It is not to be. If I take the journey alone there is no one to share it with. I have been to the mountain, and of course, when I turned there was no one there as I had traveled alone. I have shared what I have seen, but now, I think the next power, what I have yet to learn, comes from standing in the open. My only choice, as I push ahead and open my life, is to let go of the tension. It is tough because this makes me really uncomfortable, to be so open. I am beginning to think I must take the gate altogether off and discard it. That the true source of my tension comes from working so hard to secure the gate.
Magic. What do I think of magic? I think I will release it by choosing instead of a gate, a vast and open space. A place where what actually is, is given permission to self-present without the imposition of preconceived restraint. Preconceptions, such as my long-held insistence that I must be very tense about what I see and hide it from the public discussion. You see, I believe everything is magical. That everything is made of magic and we are its masters. This is why it is so easy to deny it and pretend we are without influence. Admitting this is how things came to be we are responsible, pretending we do not see this, the magic is used instead to create that ruse. Magic is powerful. Using it collectively to create a ruse, well that is a tough nut. I have no intension of cracking it. Let us see if we can turn the magic loose and watch it dance. Will you take this walk with me?
Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012