Back to Eden

Just considering these words, Self-Respect, Self-Control, Opportunity and Optimism, has corrected my mind. It has silenced my self-deprecating inner voice. Much like a magical incantation. The effect was instantaneous and has been durable. It is just this sort of experience that motivates me to live a providence based life, devoted only to God, sure that whatever I need is before me at all times. That God, whether God is or is naught, provides, and I only need to accept, by grace, what is the answer for every question. I know that the subtlety of thought is powerful and it creates how I am. My expectation is to allow my thought to create, who I am. To prepare a place, unstructured by burdensome thought, free of the restraint that our thought so often imposes on us. A place suitable for my soul. A temple, a throne.

My ability restored, I can now begin to live the life that will bring me the opportunity needed to be the person I am.

I have seen the subtle power of the content of my mind, its thought. Much of what we think is as a box, a prison that restrains us. We think we have to build a place of strength but our thought serves us best when it has no rigid characteristic. When thought is flexible, creation is unleashed and the magic that is our nature is revealed.

It is not our place to define ourselves, so much as it is to allow ourselves to be defined as we are. Generally, I stay away from biblical reference because it is used to support every position, any position. People spin it any way they like, but here goes. In Genesis we were said to ‘name’ the creatures. It is an act of creation, the name implies what is. It defines and creates it. The whole of the creature is contained in its name, in the thought that comprises it. This is why we can not ‘name’ God. When we name God we define, or create God. That is always a false God, powerful yes, but false. It seems obvious to me that this is what is being implied by the naming of the creatures in Genesis. It alludes to who we are, and so I mention it.

I am also fond of the Tree of Knowledge, you remember, Adam and Eve shared an apple. I do not buy into the good and evil story, I see right and wrong. The fruit of the tree is right and wrong and that is evil. Nothing is right without wrong, and wrong, without right, is naught. Ownership is the poison of this tree. Right and wrong are the foundation of ownership. There is no special knowledge that separates me from the rest, but ownership, implies an undeserved privilege. The name of this tree is Knowledge and Knowledge is ownership, unless it is simple acquaintance.

The knowledge I seek is acquaintance, the simple observation of what is. I seek only truth, and have no care for being right. Please, I don’t believe. Why should I consider myself right? I can see my life and I am standing here looking at yours. Anyone who thinks they are right is wrong because of it. It is not possible to be right without wrong. They are the same. If we are not inclined to be right we can instead do what seems best. You don’t have to be right and no one is wrong.

I decided long ago that this was as far as anyone need look in the Bible for guidance. The first few lines of Genesis is all you need and if you are looking for Eden, here on earth, don’t bother. We left it. It is not an earthly place. You can travel there in your mind and know its mystery, its secrets, but that is the only place you will find it here on earth. Eden is where your soul lives. You can make a place suitable, in your person, for you soul, and who you are will also be how you are.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2013

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Solomons Key and The Kundalini

Winning the lottery. Tonight’s Mega Millions Jackpot is $99,000,000. The lump-sum payout is about $26,900,000, after taxes, and that works out to just under $10,000,000 when divided by three. When I play the lottery, I plan on winning, and giving two-thirds of it away. I know that $10,000,000 is more than I will need to live and pursue my interests. I do not always play. I wait until it is in excess of $60,000,000 and even then I do not necessarily play. It has been some time since I have bothered and if it gets too big, I lose interest. It is not about the money.

I have always thought, why not the lottery? Even when I was young it seemed the obvious way to succeed. Beyond that, I came to believe I would win, even when there was no lottery, and, in the twenty-eight years of the lottery, I have not won. I still believe, and so, occasionally I play.

In science we know that light travels at a known speed. This allows us to look into the past, at least in so far as the our solar system and the universe are concerned. The future is very predictable. Things grow, it’s predictable. Things move, it’s predictable. We plan for war, it’s predictable. There will be a drought, it’s predictable and on and on. People imagine things, and predictably, create them. When I consider winning the lottery I think there is a way to see it beforehand. How? I work with metaphysics and spirituality. These areas of expertise are plagued and fraught with subtlety. When the subtle structure is true, there is clarity, perception, understanding and passage.

We can consider our human condition similarly to light. We can see into the past and the future is predictable. An individual is not alone and none of us are separated from the past or the future. Both tenses are entirely present in the moment and all of humanity is represented in each of us. All who will be and all who have been. This is where subtlety, for me, is most vexing. We are all creative and constantly creating, none of us do this alone. How then does a person realize the integrity of personal authority and create accordingly? After all, the creative collective of humanity is at best chaotic and that is our creative environment. How do we set aside the chaos and restore clarity? It would seem that with clarity chaos is naught. What appears to be chaotic is an illusion, albeit one that we tend to be trapped in and work to perpetuate.

There can be no separation between chaotic creativity and creative clarity, we are one community. Out of the apparent chaos, the community gives rise to creative clarity, much as an individual rises up within their person to find clarity, success. Metaphysically, spiritually I look at this using the template of the Kundalini. I have studied the Kundalini, as a metaphysical, spiritual tool, at length. It is what I call a mysticism, in other words, I have not read about it. Mysticism for me springs from providence and is entirely empirical. My understanding of the chakras, and the Kundalini, is from personal experience. I have flipped through a picture book and read, at best, a few hundred words on the subjects. Additionally, I believe there are such things as mystical keys. The one I am drawn to is the Key of Solomon. I believe I know what it is and fundamentally how it works. The center pillar of the key is the Kundalini. When the Kundalini is realized, it is as a pillar that supports a temple the centermost part of which is the Key of Solomon. It is an actually place and a way to be. It is clarity and the magic that has long been attributed to it is a myth. That is of course because it is no more magical than everything else we do. Everything we do is magic. It is our nature.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2013

Which End of The Telescope

When confined to the realm of the lower chakras, people are an obstacle and we are one with them, one of them. We congregate by our emotional response to how we have been conditioned. This congregation of emotional reality serves to bind us to be the subject of judgement and to judge. We entertain this condition emotionally and rationally, building connections that bind us to the lower chakras. It can only end if we connect the lower chakras to the higher chakras.

Even after making the connection the binding that we dutifully built will remain.

The first task, after reaching the higher chakras, while still bound by emotion, judgement and condition to the lower chakras, is to embrace being bound this way. What needs to change is the way we respond to the judgement we previously bound ourself to. It is this response that allows the binding to relax releasing the self into the higher chakras, or conversely, to allow the lower chakras to pull us back down. I was able to rise to the higher chakras by considering, self-respect, self-control, opportunity and optimism. Self-respect and Self-control granted passage to the fifth chakra, Sea of Justice Seat of Truth. This position of Truth allowed Opportunity to open the sixth chakra, Light Gate and in turn Optimism opened Spirit Gate, the seventh chakra. Now, as I consider this, the pull of the lower three chakras works to restore its grip.

My first attempt to relax these bounds has been ineffective. What to do? There was a time that I enjoyed a relatively secure continuity of the seven chakras acting as one. That was a different time and I realized it by releasing the aforementioned bounds, thus allowing the self to rise. I think there must be a different expectation of me now. Something along the lines of reverse engineering. To build the path from the top down, something resembling an out-of-body experience. To provide the connection I established with self-respect, self-control, opportunity and optimism and allow osmosis to do the rest. I think this must be it. I can see the emotional soup of judgement and conditioning swirling around me, as if to swallow me and pull me under. The screams of Devils and Demons. The ridicule and taunt of Satans. The imposing expectations of both agreement and disagreement born of our human community. These are the things we typically ignore as we bind ourselves with ignorance and deny the obvious, hoping to fit and be like the rest.

This time, as I work to restore the temple by realizing its central pillar, the seven chakras of the Kundalini, it is a time I think to simply bear witness until the clamor runs its course. Without adding my voice there will be no conversation and the place I am will quite. This I think must be the purpose, to change the conversation, but this time from the top down.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2013

Spiritual Awakening

My ability to be independent, free and resourceful, unburdened by the hand of restraint, has found a new lease. I have renewed my commitment to opportunity, restoring possibility to my sight. It had been beyond my sight, a distant horizon and all I needed was to stand. Easier said than done. The burden that pulled me down did so incrementally. Employing just the moment; persistent, constant, unnoticed. The product of my long-held betrayal of self, now informs me. These burdens always collect in the lower chakras and when they pull us down, we establish norms and habits that perpetuate and reinforce their permanence. The lower chakras are, at best, poorly lit.

Back in 1981 I came to believe I would win a lottery in California and that would be the means of my financial security. Not very helpful. There was no lottery in California at that time, only the constant talk of, maybe, someday. Idle chatter across the populace. In 1984 the voters of the state passed proposition 37 and on October 3 1985 the first drawing was held. I am still confident that I will win the darn thing, but not by some luck. There is a way to understand it. To be honest I would rather have some different notion than imagine that such a thing is possible and that I should pursue it. I do not waste much time or money on it. I only play if the jackpot is in excess of 60 million dollars and then I buy three identical tickets so I can easily give most of it away. In the meantime I pursue more traditional career paths. That is not working out very well either. The cost of living has outpaced my means.

Today I am able to be open about my mystical sensibilities without hedging against the hostile intentions of an intimate acquaintance. I have managed to restore myself spiritually and expose myself in the process. I suppose that is some sort of notable benchmark. I wonder if it is? I have long suspected that my overall success was tied, first to my spiritual life and secondly to living spiritually publicly. I am pretty sure I have restored my spiritual posture and I have done that very publicly. Now I shall see if I can walk the walk. If I can it is a Brave New World because I have not done it before.

I believe the world is magical and we are magical beings. That nothing happens any other way. It is the norm, the way things are, what we are doing all the time. Call it creation if you will and that we are creative. This belief leaves me with one incentive; to live that way. It is the way I live.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2013