Samyaza Master of Darkness

I have not gone away but there are times that I have nothing to write. Today, I will write of Samyaza. He is an unhappy sort and he will not let that go. He is miserable and misery loves company. It seems I have been keeping this miserable one company and that has been my plague. There is but one thing that rids him, forgiveness, but he does not want it. He will not have it. It is just as well, it is not for him, it is for me. When I have it he goes away because he does not want it and will not have it.

Samyaza is a Satan. I can see him now but they prefer to be unseen. They live in shadows and darkness, never in the light. Only when we realize they exist, and let them go, do we glimpse them as we pass into light. Samyaza is a Satan, who, will not let go. He is all hands. He has the appearance of a star but instead of tongues of fire and light, he emanates darkness. It is hands everywhere, holding tight and never letting go.

Are Satans imaginary? They are in this respect; we imagine we do not see them and that is the darkness that we share with them.

I have three guardians that watch over me, Uriel, the guardian of abundance, Phanuel, the guardian of providence and Sarakiel, the guardian of fate. I have been asking them to guide me and help me. I have known these three for some time but my sight of them is as a memory. Since I accidentally rekindled my acquaintance with Samyaza, my visual recognition of Angles has been compromised. Thankfully I did have a sustained and gratifying association with Angles prior to my fall from grace. That experience has been an oasis of confidence, like a mirage in a difficult landscape.

Falling in with Satans is as an envelope of darkness and Angels do not walk there. You can not see them in darkness. The way Samyaza binds us to darkness is easy to understand. For me, I fell into what I considered to be a great difficulty. It overwhelmed me and ruined my life. Had I considered this differently, Samyaza would not have found me and made me his companion. I was unable to avoid old habits of thought and darkness seeped back into my life. You see, I did not always walk with Angels.

None of this is bad or good as much as it just is. For me, I don’t know that I would have started this blog, if not for Samyaza. The blog is my method of working my way back into the light. To walk again with my Angelic friends. I miss them so and I have long-expected that my destiny is to share my walk with humanity. To bring the spiritual world and the temporal world to the same place. There is nothing in my world that does not revolve around that gravity. I can not escape it. All of my joy all of my rage, it comes from my sense of destiny and my struggle with it. This gravity, my sense of destiny, has brought me all of my rage and every success. All by the fickle nature of choice.

This is my life. My spiritual life, I write about it here. How about you, how is your spiritual life? Mine is good but only when my choices are good. It is just that simple.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2013

Freedom From Faith

Inviting my divine existence to explain life is the reason I write. I imagine that by making my private space public I will have no place to hide and some underlying truth will be revealed. I look to understand the condition that is experience. In writing I share my interpretation and explanation of life. Instead of looking to others to explain my experience, to comfort me, I believe that my experience is intended to be that explanation. I look no other place and seek no other authority. I can not imagine that being aware that I exist does not also come with understanding that existence. I feel that is what I have to do, replace the question of existence with its understanding. I see no other activity worth my effort.

I believe exploring my experience publicly will bring that understanding forward. That eventually I will no longer be in a position to avoid the issue and the truth about my experience will be obvious. Inescapable. I think that my experience is the same as everyone else’s. We are all the same and that is the value in understanding our experience. Are we spiritual beings? Do we have a spirit that animates us, something independent of  animal life? More durable. If we do surely it is something that can be understood and experienced. It must be something that does not require faith. There is no faith needed to understand things as they are. Faith helps us find confidence when we are unwilling or unable to build it from our own experience. I decided to abandon faith long ago settling on the strength of confidence without faith.

I think it is possible that we have the freedom to choose our spirit. Obviously we are animated and spirited. Emotion is the spirit that moves us and it has many forms. Certainly we can control our emotions, the spirits that animate us. I think some spirits are so familiar that they have form and just like you or I, a person. It is a spiritual form and some people see these spirits. I do. The question then is what do I see and what causes it. Imagination? Perhaps. While I can not rule that out it seems unlikely. I see these kind of spirits as born of our own creativity. We created them some time ago or perhaps we continue to do so. That is my interpretation and I offer no proof. It is an empirical observation. I see other spirits as well and they seem to be of a different nature. I consider them to be Angels and Ascendant Beings.

Let’s consider ascendant beings. Some people, it seems to me, escape the cycle of incarnation and ascend while others repeat it. Generally these are people who have a spirit, in this life, that makes ascension seem reasonable. Although I have seen exception. It leaves me thinking we are a creation that can know our creator, if we choose. I refer to that creator as a soul. It is not ours and we are independent of it unless we surrender our identity to it. Surrender the fruit of the Tree of Knowledge, ownership, and become who we are instead of the how we created. We can choose to be the creator instead of the creation. We just have to give up possession, the notion that we own anything. It is not necessarily a vow of poverty. It can be but abundance is the law and that is what gives a vow of poverty its value. There is no poverty. That is also what makes the pervasiveness of poverty such a crime. If my view of this is true then poverty is something we have created for our amusement.

I do believe that a person can live in both worlds at the same time. To invite the creator to be the creation. An immersion in both realities, divine living. Actually I think it is expected of us. It is easy to have such an experience privately, at least for me it is. Divine living is not a private thing and I have yet to see a way to do that. I remain convinced that it is something I can do, and therefore, what I am expected to do. I am uncomfortable in that role. I think the difficulty I have boils down to my spiritual state.  The emotion that is generated by my discomfort, my spirit-state, prevents success. Any measure of success requires an honest appraisal of  what is possible and acceptance that my consideration of all of this may well be in error is a must. This is not to be confused with doubt but rather it is the foundation for confidence.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2013

The Valley of Shadows

I have operated on the principal that if I just keep plugging away, sudden realization would be inevitable, and, confidence born of success, that is itself success, would be revealed. Imagining the spiritual landscape, I already find myself in, as success, is quite different. The confidence I seek is to be comfortable in my spiritual skin. Specifically to be comfortable in the spiritual shadow-land occupied by temporal spirits. Where doubt and shame, ridicule and embarrassment, reign. I refer to the expectation found in human sensibility that doubts spirituality. Many are sure that timeless beings of spiritual constitution are nonexistent and our realm of temporal spirits is populated with the spiritual equivalency of that certainty. That is because we are spiritual beings in a temporal reality. As spiritual beings we are by nature creative and our temporal spiritual landscape reflects the collective product of that creativity. The most prevalent disposition concerning our spirituality is ignorance and we blissfully deny the spiritual condition we are in as well as our authority regarding that condition. The spiritual influences we create in turn produce an agreed upon perception of reality. Forty three years ago I decided I would not share my understanding of our spiritual nature. How I see who we are and who I am. My attitude was; Let someone else do it, why should I bother. After all it is no secret. The path is clear for anyone who would take it. In a world where people ignore who and how they are I was angry that I could see it. Worse than that I was driven to pursue it. I wanted nothing to do with myself or the world I found myself in. Why bother?

That rage did tear me up but I managed to survive. I do think that at times destiny is stronger than death and we survive what would otherwise kill us. To my amazement, I, like many others, have survived.

While recovering from the worst of my behavior, a motorcycle accident, I finally took up the mystic person I had always been and tried it on for size. If it had any merit it would prove itself. It did. That time is over and I fell from my spiritual comfort zone. The path I have chosen to restore it goes through the shadowy valley of temporal spirits. To walk in the open as a spiritual being. When I was last faced with this choice, forty-three years ago, I decided to rage against all creation, until by attrition I was dead. It did not work but the temptation to take up that rage again remains strong. After all, nothing has changed, I am faced with the same question; Will I take a spirit-walk as a public figure? To make an example of our true spiritual nature, in a very public way. Time will tell that story best and I still have some left.

Anyone who has been reading this blog must know by now that I write to prod myself into the open. To force myself to let go and simply be here now. Even if I have put it off too long and fall short, this is worth it. I am the same as you and anyone can see as I do. Someone else will do it If I don’t. I feel that much of my writing is circular, the same story over and over. I apologize, I really should get to the point and just do what I am here to do. Take my spirit-walk through the valley of shadows. Invite the spiritual beings who have no temporal origin to join me. They are very comforting, I know this from personal experience, but if I am not comfortable they can not join me. I am as yet undecided about it. I am looking for the decision that will change that.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist, ©2013

Spirit Walk

It is easy to enjoy a rich and rewarding spiritual experience, privately. Angels and Ascendant Beings are comforting by nature and quite capable of making themselves known. At least that has been my experience and the reason I am at ease stating that these beings do exist. That they are sentient, much like you or I, except, they have no temporal form. They do have temporal acquaintances and they have taken the initiative to introduce themselves to me. That is something that will make a person take notice. I did inquire as to the existence of these and the result was they made themselves known. What am I to do with such an experience? What would you do?

I came to accept it. I developed relationships. Today I work to restore those relationships. In keeping with that effort I find that the work involves a more inclusive spiritual domain. The world of temporal spirits. Spirits that depend on human beings to exist. By invitation, I introduce myself to the shadowy world that is the realm of temporal spirits. It has been my custom to banish most of this sort and that was easy work. They do not like the light or the beings that populate it. An easy way to help a person is to take a spirit-walk with them. Those spirits, unsuitable for the walk, are that way due to the light and they fade away. A spirit-walk is not a physical action. It takes place in a spiritual realm where spirits mingle.

There can be no true corruption because corruption is not true. Corrupting spirits are this contradiction. They are not true and it would seem that they know no permanence. Dependent entirely on temporal reality. You can see that the company of spiritual beings, unbound by temporal reality, is very comforting and the company of temporal spirits, not so much. Well we do walk in the company of these temporal spirits and while some of them are harmless, and even helpful, others are evil. All of these for the most part go ignored except that they wield influence and we are in turn influenced. We each, by our thoughts and behaviors, determine the nature of the influence that guides us.

I am beginning to learn that being open about my spiritual life agitates the temporal spirits. That is something I do not like and I have reacted negatively. Any negative reaction is like taking a firm grip when letting go is best. The influence chosen is negative. That is a good lesson and I hope I have learned it. It is good to walk in this shadowy valley and I will not be abandoned by the untethered spirits who are bound only to what is absolute. To God. Let’s not consider God so much as a deity. God, to me, is not so much what is absolute as much as what is absolute is of God. To know God, know what is absolute and let God express God’s self.

I do think that my aversion to such a high exposure of temporal spirits is the source of the repetitive sense of difficulty I wrote of in my last post. I actually wrote that post a couple of weeks ago. I was unable to give it a final edit until this morning. Instead I was swamped by providence. Having to sort myself out using imagery. Considering the word, successful, I imagined success. I began with the areas where failure seemed to be my consideration. I then met that, which seemed to be failure, with the notion of success and imagined success. What a refreshing change.

I do expect to bridge the spiritual world, that is untethered to temporal form, to the shadowy realm of temporal spirits, rendering that realm true. I have done it before but only privately. Recognizing a point of resistance, as I have, I think I am closer to getting it done.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2013

Temporal Spirits

Considering that we are spiritual, as I do, it is wise to accept that some spirits are temporal. Just as are we. We do exist. We are aware. I think existence and awareness are independent of my temporal expression. That there is an eternal or everlasting quality that is independent of my biologically based expression, except that, I exist, I am aware. We are animated, or another way to say that is that we have spirit. It is spirit that animates us. Much of our spiritual experience, as temporal beings, is also temporary. It is this temporal spiritual interaction that we are most accustomed to as spiritual beings. We interact with each other spiritually. It is not something we pay a lot of attention to but we are constantly interacting in a spiritual realm. We can see this represented in our daily lives. The example that always comes first to my mind is this; I think we all turn to see the person we are sure is looking at us and see them doing just that. What communication is at play?

I see these spiritual expressions, or at least I believe I do. Perhaps I have simply structured a framework to explain the experience that I am familiar with but at any rate I have experience that supports my explanation. I am also familiar with spiritual beings that present themselves as being independent of biologic form. I know them as Angels and Ascendant Beings. I am also familiar with Demons, Devils and Satans and have come to believe that these only exist in temporal spiritual realms. We make agreements in our temporary spiritual world with all of these influences. Most of these agreements are accumulative. We do not sit around and fashion the choices we make that form our spirit presence, we just find our self the product of the accumulative subconscious habit of thought. By and large we ignore the spiritual conversation we are always engaged in. It is difficult to have a habit of ignorance without giving way to full-blown denial. There you have it. Nothing could be more obvious than our spiritual experience. Why are we so determined to corrupt our rich and powerful spiritual experience with denial and ignorance? It amazes me. I of course am just writing about the experience that I have and my interpretation of it.

Much of what we experience spiritually is generated by us and expressed into the shared realm of temporal spiritual experience. We each then cope with that. Some of us are better at it than others. Some people are hypersensitive to spiritual expression, auditory, visual, whatever and often this can cause emotional or psychological dysfunction. Most people seem to completely ignore their spiritual experience because they have other more pressing concerns. I sometimes wish I was that person but I am not.

Some days ago I wrote The Psychology of Spirit. I only posted it this morning but I wrote it several days ago. Since then I have been sorting out a spiritual landscape that has a lot of useless temporary spiritual expression. My quest is divine life and that means creating a spiritual place free of useless spiritual expression. That is what lifts the temporal spiritual presence to experience a spiritual realm that is more durable. That is true.

This is not new territory for me but it is different. For years people would approach me, in spirit form, and ask for my help. At the time I was very familiar with Angels, Ascendant Beings and the like because they also made a habit of approaching me. I would do what I could to help. It was really a fun time. Satisfaction. Fulfillment. This work was done privately, discreetly. It is a luxury I am no longer allowed. Those were powerful times and they continue to give me strength as I work to restore my spiritual integrity. If I am to restore my casual acquaintance with Angels and such I have to make my spiritual life public. At least that is the path I am being offered. I have never done that before and it brings stuff into our shared spiritual room that I am not familiar with. I have to puzzle it as I go. It is a lot of work. Who knows if I can do it or if it is worth it? This stuff does not pay the bills, at least not in the short-term and all of my eggs are in this basket. Wish me luck.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2013

Kundalini The Pillar Of Appointment

Truth And Justice

Located at the top of the sternum is the fifth chakra. It is powerful. I know it as The Sea of Justice and The Seat of Truth. One of its attributes is its connection to the third chakra, Ego. Ego, or the third chakra, resides at the solar plexus. Ego is the crown, the achievement of the lower chakras. It must give permission if we are to grow into the higher chakras. The water for this growth is justice, we must accept things as they are. Acceptance is an attribute of the fourth chakra, Compassion. Compassion resides in its chakra at the center of the sternum. It is intended as a germ to infiltrate and bind the seven chakras as one. Ego, Justice, Truth and Acceptance are the key to this growth.

The fifth chakra, due to justice, (things being as they are and no other way), is connected to our ability to hear. Its attribute, truth, is connected to speech. These are spiritual qualities and both are silent. They are power. When ego accepts compassion it calms the Sea of Justice, the sky’s clear and light begins to infiltrate reality.

My recent post, Truth and Justice, is reposted above as a reference for Light Gate – Acquaintance/Family and Place/Flesh – Spirit Gate. They belong together. 

Light Gate – Acquaintance/Family

After turning the key of acceptance truth and justice comfort the ego. The voice of truth reassures, the sound of justice quiets and the restlessness of the ego dissipates. Calm begins to rule. With calm comes light. On the brow, between the eyes, is a chakra. I know it as Light Gate, some call it The Third Eye. The calm realized by ego after crossing the bridge that restores Justice and Truth, allows the gate that is the sixth chakra to clear. When this gate, Light Gate, is open, light begins to permeate Justice and Truth. Ego, by the liquid nature of Justice, becomes saturated. Light Gate is considered a High Chakra its nature is spiritual. Its corresponding Lower Chakra is the second chakra, located at the sacroiliac crest. I know the second chakra as Acquaintance. This chakra and its quality of acquaintance is developed early in life beginning, of course, with family and prior to the development of Ego, the third chakra. It is fundamental. When the gate that is the sixth chakra is clear light reaches the second chakra, the appointment that is acquaintance becomes clear and the spiritual aspects of justice and truth permeate our person. It is important to note that the bridge between the higher and lower chakras is the fourth chakra, Compassion. Any attribute of Compassion received by Ego turns the key and unlocks the bridge between the higher and lower chakras. Compassion is a bridge because it is absolute. It only exists in an absolute measure. Always enough. Naturally once this bridge is crossed its attributes permeate our person along with Truth, Justice and Light.

Place/Flesh – Spirit Gate

I did not think I would include the first and seventh chakras in this post, but here I am. At one time I considered the seventh chakra as Heavenly Acquaintance but was never comfortable with that. After all ‘Heaven’ what is that?  Since then I have learned quite a bit about spirit and now see that the seventh chakra is a gate. Spirit Gate. It corresponds to the first chakra which is Place, Flesh itself. Obviously we begin to develop this in the womb. It exists before our person arrives. It is spirit that animates flesh and so you see the corresponding link between Place/Flesh and Spirit Gate. Those spirits that are of a good nature are acquainted with us through this gate, Spirit Gate. Should we allow the absolute qualities of Compassion to permeate our person binding the seven chakras, as one, we connect Heaven and Earth. We create the pillar that can be our appointed person, free of distraction. It is a realization, not an accomplishment. I see this realization as the Kundalini completed.

The first chakra is located at the pelvic floor and the seventh chakra is found just above your head, as a crown. It is directly above the pillar that is the spine.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012

Walking With Christ

Years ago, somewhere in the area of 1982 or 83 I met Christ. It was the most frightening experience of my life. I was in the midst of rehabilitating my life. Unable to work I was teaching myself to stand up. I was bent. I took up bartering with a man who was working on his PhD in Transpersonal Psychology. He used Acupressure in his work and I performed Acupressure and acted as his counselor in exchange for the same. We did this for at least three years, maybe more. Intense psychotherapy. I had made the commitment to change my life and this was the path I found. My life had been filled with rage. I realized I am a mystic in 1969 and I did not like that. I got very angry and stayed that way until 1981, realizing then that the anger had made me what I was what I was angry about. I decided that I would embrace mysticism and if it had legs it would become my walk and if it did not I could finally be done with it and get on with my life.

I woke up one night, terrified, I was lying on my stomach pillow over my head, arms on top of that and desperately working to forget something. There was an enormous racket in my room above my bed. The noise kept up until I was fully awake and then a little longer. Long enough to assure that I was fully awake and asking myself, what the hell is going on? I realized I was terrified and in a full sweat, but not because of this racket, the sound, apparently, of large wings beating. Oddly, that did not bother me at all. I sat up and began to piece things together.

I had traveled, in a dream, for the deliberate purpose to meet someone. This person was made, as near as I could tell, of light. So bright that in order for me to approach a garment of some sort covered all but the head, hands and feet. I asked this one if he was who I thought he was, Christ, and the response was yes. I had traveled to meet this person and ask this question and yet was terrified. I immediately returned to my sleep place and furiously worked to forget it. I already told you how well that plan worked.

During that time of my life I did a lot walking, part of my bid to rehabilitate myself. Get rid of my constant pain, stand up straight and get back to work. It took two years to finish that work and be strong enough to even consider work again. One of my favorite walks was on the saltwater marshes of the San Francisco Bay. It was on one of these hikes that I realized, this was the place I had come to and walked with Christ. The whole business has such a profound and deep meaning for me personally there are no words to convey it.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012