Where Is Now and How Do We Get There?

A person is comprised of the way interactions with others are considered by the person. In considering what our acquaintances see when they see us we fashion our interactions. Hidden in this is the reality that it is only our perception of how we are perceived that determines the way we consider acquaintance and how we think we are considered. These considerations are our person. There are many variables and moving parts that determine our person but this interface, is fundamental. What we think about is what we are. We, our persons, are built of thought. Just as is the world that we imagine ourselves living in. We also see the building blocks required to exist at all. We use all of this to try to fix, something more permanent. As if there could be something more permanent. After all our appointment is brief. If only we knew what to do?

I think we imagine a progression that simply does not exist outside of our imagination of it. That imagining makes it real and makes it possible to manipulate what is real to more closely resemble what is true. Doing this, a person begins with the fundamental considerations of self already mentioned. We must own the person we are without pretending we are as others consider us. There are many ways that this interaction is considered, or ignored. We project the person we consider our self to be, work, family, habits and behavior, and make assumptions as to how we are considered. Another personality type might internalize how he or she thinks they are being perceived and then make an impression of that in acquaintance. For the sake of brevity I will not try to imagine all the various ways different types play their hand. We do. It seems clear to me that we are aware of the true structure of creation as well as our role in staging reality. Then I have two questions; Why don’t I take more responsibility for it, express it? Why is the pretense of confusion (denial) so stubborn, and, what to do about that?

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012

The Gravity of Choice

In order to see spiritually, to identify the beings that populate reality, beings whose appearance are ethereal, I must relax enough to allow my own ethereal being a static presence. It is a matter of my personal gravity. The way I am, my disposition, attitude, demeanor, creates a density or transparency of being. The choices I make about how I am create an increasing density or an increasing transparency. Gravity. The gravity of choice.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012

The Rule of Resentment

When I was a child I was reluctant to conform and to the extent I did conform I did so reluctantly. This reluctance produced a default for dealing with difficulty. My personal tendencies; attitude, demeanor, temperament, the inclination to react that comes naturally to me, were fixed in place by a very young child. As an adult these childish sensibilities still produce a framework on which I present myself. They produce a tendency to react, to do things a certain way because that was the behavior I settled on as an upset and resentful child. Beneath this resentment is a sense of injury, a choice to interpret my experience as undesirable. Of course these were not the only tendencies and behaviors I developed as a child but they are the ones that as an adult I should be careful of. It is easy to let them dictate choice and draw me away from what serves me best. When times are difficult, this reaction to difficulty, set in place as a child, are as a poor guide to choice and behavior. When having a difficult time and applying this default, a structure is put in place that remains intact, when the difficulty has past. There is no way to erase what has been done, to undo it. Instead I can change it by using it to create, from what I have done, from what is, a place that seems better or best. It is real work, and because the subject matter is difficulty, it is difficult.

As a young child my sense of awareness included companions others could not see. I do not remember them but have been told stories that remind me of a shared frustration. These were not pretend beings, they made themselves known. The adults in my life became frustrated by my ‘imaginary’ acquaintances and I in turn was frustrated by their claim not to see what was right in front of them. I buried the memories with pain and disappointment. Among other things I was resentful. While I have no tangible recollection of my childhood friends the memory remains somewhere and a I have residual sense of it.

Perhaps someday I will recollect my childhood companions. I almost can. As an adult I have met any number of Angels, Ascendant Beings, Deva, People transitioning between lives, Satan’s, Devils and Demons. It is also common to encounter spirit representations of people I know who are family, friends, or adversaries. In the last few years I am most likely only to encounter these temporal spirit forms. The spirit forms of people alive today as human acquaintance. I see the others but only occasionally. When my youngest was five and his older sister eight my ex walked out and abandoned us. She remained involved but her entire focus was to harm me and our children. She worked hard to teach the children to hate the people dearest to them who were my side of the family, as well as myself, and she actively tried to ruin me financially. I mention this as a matter of fact, not as a slight. Emotionally, psychologically, she is not well. She makes poor choice and I think that is the cause of it. (I am not a psychologist or otherwise professionally credentialed and my opinion is just that. My opinion). This situation lasted for many years and I built difficult structures. These structures are built with the habits of thought. Countless subtleties where I hide myself from ‘good spirit’ companions.

To create the place where these good spirits are comfortable, willing to show themselves, is no different from building the difficult structures that keep them away. It is a more deliberate process, to build away from the structure of difficulty. It is done with the countless subtleties of the habit of thought. Once done it is durable.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012

Providence Grace and Divination

The spirit of providence is grace, or, in other words, grace is the spirit of God’s constant presence, providence. Is God or is God naught? The answer to this is constant and it is known as providence. It does not matter what the answer is, as ultimately it can not be disputed, and so it makes no difference. God is revealed only if my habits support fact. Fact is the construct of what is. We do imagine things differently than things are but fact assures the true nature of things, even as we imagine it differently. When the fact on which I base my imaginings is followed, the truth is revealed. We center our self, so that falsehood is lost, by imagining understanding, acceptance, grace and compassion. These qualities create an environment where providence is known and its spirit, grace, is active. We are no longer forcing the world as we want it but accepting it as it is.

Being mystic I practice divination. I use it to decide pretty much everything. This is no guarantee for good decision-making. If the qualities of understanding, acceptance, grace and compassion are not at the center of the world I imagine divination is frustrated. This is providence guiding me back to my true center. When my center is true falsehoods gain little traction. The fact that they exist remains but the true path of providence is revealed and grace clears the way. Divination is a crude tool to guide me to this center, should I ever decide to stay there long enough it becomes unnecessary as the good choice becomes a constant habit and grace adds itself to the spirit that animates me.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012

The Mystic Has No Clothes

Devils congregate, called into existence in support of my reliance that things should be static. That no change should ever take place. Devils have long populated the experience we share, they preceded our birth and have agreements with those whom we know and love. When we become upset with another it perverts what would otherwise be love and a form begins to take shape. We assign these forms a place and they begin a life of their own. Unless we choose to redress our agreement with these forms they grow. They exist in a reality created by our ignorance. We want to think someone else made us angry or upset us, that our problems are in some measure the fault of others. It is a reality that owes its existence to ignorance. It is a community of ignorance that is only possible by our shared agreement. So long as we allow ignorance to exist the trouble it harbors remains. Everything that lurks in the darkness, I have created, remains, building and multiplying, networking and conspiring to create permanence. None of these do this except by our consent and when I give my consent it is just one voice in a chorus of consent. This is the realm of ignorance and denial that we collectively agree does not exist and that is the wellspring of troubles. Even if one of us abandons the franchise the rest remain invested. This is the challenge I have always had. Why bother? I know all that separates any one of us from what we have created is ignorance. More importantly the chorus of ignorance, where we collectively pretend and agree to accept things as they are naught and ridicule those who know the truth. When all is said and done none of us is innocent, we all know the truth. In order to fashion the masquerade born of ignorance it is required. We also are in the dark, and, while there we pretend ignorance. There is nothing there that would not be seen in the light and so it is not so frightening. This ignorance however is very sticky and to be in a community defined by it, while living without it, requires an unusual state. Just as ignorance was created the same magic creates its absence. Devils are spirits and they create Demons and Satans. These are simple spirits that can only exist in the shadowy world of ignorance that we create. What is this magic that creates this place and the spirits that populate it? It is choice. Simple and constant. That we choose is what does not change. If I would walk with the better spirits it is just my choice that takes down the pretense, the wall of ignorance, and I stand in the light. Why is it so difficult? The secret is in the cloth I fashion for myself. It is made of ignorance.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012

Remembering The Future

As I wonder, considering fulfillment and its elusiveness, I see before me my past. The habits of my life, along with regrets and contentment’s. It is habit that determines where I keep my past, the habit of thought and behavior. The past is only at rest by honest appraisal of its importance. Be it a regret or contentment importance must be valued objectively if fulfillment is to be realized. When my past is before me, it only wants release, I am obliged to recognize its true importance, its release. Regret is always in the wrong place. A regret is never allowed to pass and it is a habit of thought that is regret. Habits of pride or self-importance are examples of how contentment is misplaced and what belongs behind me is instead an obstacle before me. The way I think and feel about things generate behavior that either fixes or releases the past. When the past is fixed it is as a barrier or an anchor but when it is a casual comfort or acceptance it is free to lend its definition and the future gains its complete promise.

It is in this way that the future is the past and I am able to remember the future. My past keeps me in line or sets me free, depending on where and how I keep it. When I choose fulfillment, in whole term, life’s fulfillment, enlightenment, I must first be at rest with my past. It is then that I can create or remember my future and it becomes my past. As long as I keep any part of my past before me it wants release and it is that release that sets me free to create a future independent of my past. Everything about life is habitual, all the mechanisms. It is usual to find a sync of habit that fits our culture and community and is accepted as normal. A habit that tethers and preserves status. I can also choose habit that is no less normal but is unusual. A habit that creates the future without replicating the past. The model for this habit is the future I create and I remember the future by creating it.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012