The Question Of Ego

End avoidance beginning with my Ego.

As life progresses, bringing with it conflict, we react. We create a tendency that is predictable, our Ego. Ego is our carnate identity, it belongs to the physical expression of being; flesh, blood and bone. It is as a possession, of being incarnate, that imagines it possesses what is carnate. It is like a defence mechanism and tends to be defensive as well as possessive. What Ego wants is direction, to be told how to behave. Much of what becomes of our Ego ends up as what rules our behavior. That is a role reversal of its purpose. Just as Ego is not intended to control us we are not intended to control it. Ego represents the completion of our child and is pretty much completed at age seven. It is also the third chakra. The direction it seeks can be found only when all decisions, made and maintained by the Ego, are seen as important. When it is a decision that troubles us, that is its purpose. It seeks direction so as not to be troubled. This direction comes from opening all passages to divinity. We are not comprised of earthly substance alone, existence is timeless and we exist. It is the nature of existence that all the secrets of existence are represented in everything, in anything, that exists. The Ego needs to let go of its possession and its ruling tendency, this creates the opening that allows divine guidance.

In my last post, Behind The Veil, I wrote of ‘Ghost-like apparitions’ generated by the Ego. In this post I am learning what I thought I already knew; Approval, acceptance, a sense of importance, compassion, heals the Ego. These are attributes of the fourth chakra which is Compassion. Compassion is the gate or bridge between the higher and lower chakras. Bridging the chakras is one of the fundamental steps of divine living. Now when I am pressed by ghostly egoic apparitions I let them let go by acknowledging their request for guidance. I do believe that is all they represent, a request for guidance. I visualize the apparition  rising into my fifth, sixth and seventh chakras. This represents the question that is Ego being raised and the bond forming between the higher and lower chakras. The qualities I noted in this post; giving importance to the Ego’s decisions, Compassion and its qualities need to be given to the Ego if it is to rise up through the higher chakras with its question.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012

Metaphysics And The Distillation Of How

In my last post, The Key of Solomon,  I wrote of Character, Disposition and Reputation. In my mystic progression, and for the sake of better understanding, I have a lesson to learn about these pieces of my puzzle. I will learn this lesson as I write this post. I have always worked this way, writing and learning. Prior to blogging I carried a folded paper with me and when a word occurred to me, to continue a sentence, or a line of thought, I would write it down. After stringing enough words together a completed thought or idea would manifest. Except for the conversational context, that is a blog, this is the same process. Let us see what there is to know about this collision of person at the point of true gravity; Being and Now.

In The Key of Solomon I wrote of a sphere and within the sphere three intersecting lines, those lines are as a foundation. They intersect at the point that is the center of the sphere creating twelve right angles. The center point is the point of Being as well as the moment Now. Emanating from the lines are planes that divide the sphere into eight equal segments. Visually, the most obvious of these three planes is Character as it is as a front or a face and is vertical. The plane that is Disposition is also a vertical plane and appears as a thin line dividing Character front to back at a right angle. The horizontal plane, Reputation, also appears as a thin line when looking from the front to back, front being the plane of Character. Reputation divides the sphere in half and creates a top and a bottom. It seems that Reputation is as a filter. It seems that there is a tendency for stuff to get stuck in these segments and I have something stuck in one of mine. It also seems that what I have stuck moves from that segment, if it will, almost like it has a free will. That being said I think it must be a choice I made or at least associated with a choice I have made as choice is freedom and power. It is in determining what this choice is that the true value of its existence is revealed.

I find a decision to create hardship knowing it would hide me from responsibility. A decision made in my preschool years, maybe four years old. This choice originates from the effort made to discourage me from talking about people who are visible, independent beings whom I can see, yet no one else is interested. The only interest is in getting me to stop pretending. Only, I am not pretending. I have wanted to get back to this time and understand it better. My memory of this is almost entirely based on stories told to me about it. I was determined to introduce people to people they could not see. The early childhood imaginary friend. I am confident these beings were not imaginary but rather spiritual and it seems in my youthful frustration, and hurt, I turned my back on them. The choice fixed in my person components of disposition that can now be mended. Pain and frustration are poor motivators for choice. They get stuck in our person when we make a choice due to their influence. Today I am being directed to do something about this choice made so long ago.

The Key of Solomon has a great deal of movement associated with it and I am using my understanding of this movement to let go of the negative components of disposition associated with this time in my life by allowing them to go through the natural movement of the key. In doing this I am learning something new about how the key works and its practical use. Well that is my lesson. It took me four days to figure it out and write it all down. It will be interesting to see what this additional understanding of  this metaphysical key will reveal. From my past experiences with the key I think it will begin to work by the fact of familiarity, acquaintance. A realization as opposed to accomplishment. Things like this do not work if you think you can own them. There is no sophistication of intellect that makes one person deserving and another not. It is just a matter of choice, availability, determination that gives opportunity for realization. You are asking; How do I know this is Solomons Key? Well that is a good question. Time will answer that best. In my experience it has proven to be very powerful and I am confident as to what it is. Perhaps someday I will see it differently.

To me this is all very technical and I ask myself; Could anyone really be interested these metaphysical details of my personal growth? Please chime in and leave a comment so I will know you are there and find this interesting.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012

The Key of Solomon

There is a place I know of as foundation. It is a single point through which three lines intersect forming twelve right angles. The first line is Providence and it is as a pillar. The second line is Fate and it runs front to back. The third line is abundance and it runs left to right. I have long known that the intersecting point is Being. My mystic considerations, of late, have had me considering Now and how to find it. That ponder has led me to realize that this point of Being, of intersection, is Now. Emanating from these lines, and fixed by this point, are three planes. I can see this place, it has a substance I will call image, for lack of any other term. Just now I can see the planes and I have no idea what to name them and so I will write about it and divine their definitions. Come along with me if you like, I enjoy the company.

First I will consider the plane that cuts along the lines of Providence and Abundance, it is as a face or front. I will call it character. Next is the plane that is fixed by the lines of Fate and Providence and is as a profile. It is disposition. Lastly resting along the lines of Fate and Abundance is reputation.

We are usually as a satellite circling this point as it is the point of true gravity, this point that is Being, that is Now. Being somewhere other than this point is ‘normal’ or usual. This is the place of power, it can not be owned as it is what owns us. In truth we own nothing but we go about glomming on to all manner of things creating false gravity’s that pull us from our center, from Being and Now. This is how we actually create reality and it is only ‘true’ that it is real. Being and Now are also appointed a place in our physical body. It is at our body center or Hara. (You can Google Hara if you do not know what it is. Here is an example). Should a person find this place and learn the trick to fix it to their Hara, so that Now-Being and Hara are at the same place and fixed, they become a Divine Being. A completed person with the full complement of intended attribute. It is a state that can not be achieved, only realized.

There are many other components that define and secure this place, give it a ceiling and a floor. It creates a window, a door, a narrow gate to an actual place, a world, a reality. A place to walk and be. I have walked there. In this post I will cover just one more component of Solomon’s Key, that is what I know this to be. A sphere surrounds the central point As you walk on the floor of the key the sphere moves freely in any direction and is,I think, as a force-field.

It is nice to be able to see this place again and recognize its components. Hopefully I will learn a more durable lesson this time. I am still trying to get back on the seat so I can drive this thing. You have to let go of everything to be able to do it. Sounds easy, doesn’t it?

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012

Truth and Justice

Located at the top of the sternum is the fifth chakra. It is powerful. I know it as The Sea of Justice and The Seat of Truth. One of its attributes is its connection to the third chakra, Ego. Ego, or the third chakra, resides at the solar plexus. Ego is the crown, the achievement of the lower chakras. It must give permission if we are to grow into the higher chakras. The water for this growth is Justice, we must accept things as they are. Acceptance is an attribute of the fourth chakra, Compassion. Compassion resides in its chakra at the center of the sternum. It is intended as a germ to infiltrate and bind the seven chakras as one. Ego, Justice, Truth and Acceptance are the key to this growth.

The fifth chakra, due to justice, (things being as they are and no other way), is connected to our ability to hear. Its attribute, truth, is connected to speech. These are spiritual qualities and both are silent. They are power. When ego accepts compassion it calms the Sea of Justice, the sky’s clear and light begins to infiltrate reality.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012

Standing Room

Open the way making known to all the true identity given to myself. Using the structure of foundation reveal my ability beginning with control of the structure of the pyramid of circumstance. Secure the positions of this pyramid using the base to lift it into place. Using the higher chakras establish as my known person… wisdom. Allow justice and truth to permeate community releasing all conflict, restoring calm by the depth of justice. Present as my identity, my one self, revealing to all, who I am, as I reach the gate to let light reign. Fix identity to permanence attaching circumstance above the crown as the tide of justice fills reality.

We are made of water. Justice is its body. Sometimes we sink to its dark dark depths sometimes we choose to be thrown about on its rough and tumble surface. Between these two is the calm where all is known and understood. Some call it the Kundalini. I know it by a number of names and descriptions. My personal path includes the Kundalini but I know this place as the Key Of Solomon.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012

Angelic Acquaintance

Angels it seems, in their role as guardians, rid our lives of demons. As recently as my post, Sarakiel The Demon Slayer, I wrote of foundation. There are three intersecting lines, Fate, Providence and Abundance. These three lines intersect at one point forming twelve right angles. Our imagination allows us to be at this point, or anywhere else. It is our choice. It is not necessary to see or to define this to be there. A person can be at or know this place, without any of the effort I put into it. This axis is essential to existence, our person belongs to it. We are free to wander wherever we like and neglect is often the state of foundation. Our relationship with foundation is determined entirely by choice. The texture of our thought. As we think; we are.

Angels rid providence, fate and abundance of demons and it is most helpful to ask them.  The demons distract us and we give them chase away from our foundation, even as we pretend we do not see them. In my experience, demons prefer to be unseen. Ignorance of them is fundamental to their influence. The lines of influence that are Fate, Abundance and Providence are miraculous. Not so much in a profound way but just matter of fact. It is here where creation and our person are bound as one. Miracle is the fact of our divine nature, it is ordinary, everyday and mundane. It is unusual for a person to truly appreciate their divine nature and the miraculous authority of foundation. It can not be done without the help of Angels. Only with their help can we clear perception, of distraction, and the lines of foundation restore our divine state.

Our shared sense of reality has no true foundation and it is tempting to ignore the divine and be a part of what seems the larger group. I am happier when I pursue my mystic sensibilities and what I can see for myself. I had forgotten the richness and reward of reliance on Angels, of asking them to help. It is this simple act of surrender that has been absent from my life.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012

Where Is Now and How Do We Get There?

A person is comprised of the way interactions with others are considered by the person. In considering what our acquaintances see when they see us we fashion our interactions. Hidden in this is the reality that it is only our perception of how we are perceived that determines the way we consider acquaintance and how we think we are considered. These considerations are our person. There are many variables and moving parts that determine our person but this interface, is fundamental. What we think about is what we are. We, our persons, are built of thought. Just as is the world that we imagine ourselves living in. We also see the building blocks required to exist at all. We use all of this to try to fix, something more permanent. As if there could be something more permanent. After all our appointment is brief. If only we knew what to do?

I think we imagine a progression that simply does not exist outside of our imagination of it. That imagining makes it real and makes it possible to manipulate what is real to more closely resemble what is true. Doing this, a person begins with the fundamental considerations of self already mentioned. We must own the person we are without pretending we are as others consider us. There are many ways that this interaction is considered, or ignored. We project the person we consider our self to be, work, family, habits and behavior, and make assumptions as to how we are considered. Another personality type might internalize how he or she thinks they are being perceived and then make an impression of that in acquaintance. For the sake of brevity I will not try to imagine all the various ways different types play their hand. We do. It seems clear to me that we are aware of the true structure of creation as well as our role in staging reality. Then I have two questions; Why don’t I take more responsibility for it, express it? Why is the pretense of confusion (denial) so stubborn, and, what to do about that?

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012

Reality and Truth

Mysticism, for me, is visual. I see what lies beyond the veil. My habit is very methodical. I have an understanding of metaphysics and I puzzle together the pieces I have scattered about, to reach an understanding. I am not a scholar, I do not study text or doctrine, my confidence lies with the empiric nature of providence. My confidence rests entirely with God. Is God or is God naught? It makes no difference, my confidence lies squarely there. I have no use for faith.

My person is like a vessel suspended in limitless space and my bearing is entirely my own discretion. I determine the density of the veil and what I allow myself to see. I choose limitation’s or liberation’s and there is great confusion between the two. Confusion, of course, is not true, it is only real and reality is something we create.

I have known varying degrees of clarity in my mystical life. Just now I am in an episode of rehabilitation having stumbled into hardship. I do expect to puzzle together a durable clarity allowing the silliness of struggle to dissipate into the vastness of endless space.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012

The Gravity of Choice

In order to see spiritually, to identify the beings that populate reality, beings whose appearance are ethereal, I must relax enough to allow my own ethereal being a static presence. It is a matter of my personal gravity. The way I am, my disposition, attitude, demeanor, creates a density or transparency of being. The choices I make about how I am create an increasing density or an increasing transparency. Gravity. The gravity of choice.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012

The Rule of Resentment

When I was a child I was reluctant to conform and to the extent I did conform I did so reluctantly. This reluctance produced a default for dealing with difficulty. My personal tendencies; attitude, demeanor, temperament, the inclination to react that comes naturally to me, were fixed in place by a very young child. As an adult these childish sensibilities still produce a framework on which I present myself. They produce a tendency to react, to do things a certain way because that was the behavior I settled on as an upset and resentful child. Beneath this resentment is a sense of injury, a choice to interpret my experience as undesirable. Of course these were not the only tendencies and behaviors I developed as a child but they are the ones that as an adult I should be careful of. It is easy to let them dictate choice and draw me away from what serves me best. When times are difficult, this reaction to difficulty, set in place as a child, are as a poor guide to choice and behavior. When having a difficult time and applying this default, a structure is put in place that remains intact, when the difficulty has past. There is no way to erase what has been done, to undo it. Instead I can change it by using it to create, from what I have done, from what is, a place that seems better or best. It is real work, and because the subject matter is difficulty, it is difficult.

As a young child my sense of awareness included companions others could not see. I do not remember them but have been told stories that remind me of a shared frustration. These were not pretend beings, they made themselves known. The adults in my life became frustrated by my ‘imaginary’ acquaintances and I in turn was frustrated by their claim not to see what was right in front of them. I buried the memories with pain and disappointment. Among other things I was resentful. While I have no tangible recollection of my childhood friends the memory remains somewhere and a I have residual sense of it.

Perhaps someday I will recollect my childhood companions. I almost can. As an adult I have met any number of Angels, Ascendant Beings, Deva, People transitioning between lives, Satan’s, Devils and Demons. It is also common to encounter spirit representations of people I know who are family, friends, or adversaries. In the last few years I am most likely only to encounter these temporal spirit forms. The spirit forms of people alive today as human acquaintance. I see the others but only occasionally. When my youngest was five and his older sister eight my ex walked out and abandoned us. She remained involved but her entire focus was to harm me and our children. She worked hard to teach the children to hate the people dearest to them who were my side of the family, as well as myself, and she actively tried to ruin me financially. I mention this as a matter of fact, not as a slight. Emotionally, psychologically, she is not well. She makes poor choice and I think that is the cause of it. (I am not a psychologist or otherwise professionally credentialed and my opinion is just that. My opinion). This situation lasted for many years and I built difficult structures. These structures are built with the habits of thought. Countless subtleties where I hide myself from ‘good spirit’ companions.

To create the place where these good spirits are comfortable, willing to show themselves, is no different from building the difficult structures that keep them away. It is a more deliberate process, to build away from the structure of difficulty. It is done with the countless subtleties of the habit of thought. Once done it is durable.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012