A Familiar Tension

The angry four-year old is very powerful. That youth can set the course for a lifetime. The storm that became my life, as a young man, can be traced to the dictates of a little boy. I see him now in the eye of the storm, brooding, stewing… Choosing. He was hurt and worn down. The choice he settled on created a false gravity and a history to support it. Magic. Now for a new choice and new magic. I remember my imaginary childhood friend. What he looks like. His name and how he presented himself. Enoch. I have known Enoch since but had forgotten that I knew him then. Enoch is transparent. Light and matter pass right through him. Enoch is all-knowing. At four years old people did not appreciate my acquaintance with him. Frustrated and angry I shunned him. Closed the door and ignored him. The time to correct this has arrived and a great comfort sweeps over me as I remember that, Enoch, who I have known as an adult, is my long-lost childhood friend.

As a wave of emotion erupts from my person I will see where it carries me. It seems I may have found the passage. I hope so. Enoch, I am sure, knows the way and if I have found it he will advise me.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012

The Question Of Ego

End avoidance beginning with my Ego.

As life progresses, bringing with it conflict, we react. We create a tendency that is predictable, our Ego. Ego is our carnate identity, it belongs to the physical expression of being; flesh, blood and bone. It is as a possession, of being incarnate, that imagines it possesses what is carnate. It is like a defence mechanism and tends to be defensive as well as possessive. What Ego wants is direction, to be told how to behave. Much of what becomes of our Ego ends up as what rules our behavior. That is a role reversal of its purpose. Just as Ego is not intended to control us we are not intended to control it. Ego represents the completion of our child and is pretty much completed at age seven. It is also the third chakra. The direction it seeks can be found only when all decisions, made and maintained by the Ego, are seen as important. When it is a decision that troubles us, that is its purpose. It seeks direction so as not to be troubled. This direction comes from opening all passages to divinity. We are not comprised of earthly substance alone, existence is timeless and we exist. It is the nature of existence that all the secrets of existence are represented in everything, in anything, that exists. The Ego needs to let go of its possession and its ruling tendency, this creates the opening that allows divine guidance.

In my last post, Behind The Veil, I wrote of ‘Ghost-like apparitions’ generated by the Ego. In this post I am learning what I thought I already knew; Approval, acceptance, a sense of importance, compassion, heals the Ego. These are attributes of the fourth chakra which is Compassion. Compassion is the gate or bridge between the higher and lower chakras. Bridging the chakras is one of the fundamental steps of divine living. Now when I am pressed by ghostly egoic apparitions I let them let go by acknowledging their request for guidance. I do believe that is all they represent, a request for guidance. I visualize the apparition  rising into my fifth, sixth and seventh chakras. This represents the question that is Ego being raised and the bond forming between the higher and lower chakras. The qualities I noted in this post; giving importance to the Ego’s decisions, Compassion and its qualities need to be given to the Ego if it is to rise up through the higher chakras with its question.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012

The Key of Solomon

There is a place I know of as foundation. It is a single point through which three lines intersect forming twelve right angles. The first line is Providence and it is as a pillar. The second line is Fate and it runs front to back. The third line is abundance and it runs left to right. I have long known that the intersecting point is Being. My mystic considerations, of late, have had me considering Now and how to find it. That ponder has led me to realize that this point of Being, of intersection, is Now. Emanating from these lines, and fixed by this point, are three planes. I can see this place, it has a substance I will call image, for lack of any other term. Just now I can see the planes and I have no idea what to name them and so I will write about it and divine their definitions. Come along with me if you like, I enjoy the company.

First I will consider the plane that cuts along the lines of Providence and Abundance, it is as a face or front. I will call it character. Next is the plane that is fixed by the lines of Fate and Providence and is as a profile. It is disposition. Lastly resting along the lines of Fate and Abundance is reputation.

We are usually as a satellite circling this point as it is the point of true gravity, this point that is Being, that is Now. Being somewhere other than this point is ‘normal’ or usual. This is the place of power, it can not be owned as it is what owns us. In truth we own nothing but we go about glomming on to all manner of things creating false gravity’s that pull us from our center, from Being and Now. This is how we actually create reality and it is only ‘true’ that it is real. Being and Now are also appointed a place in our physical body. It is at our body center or Hara. (You can Google Hara if you do not know what it is. Here is an example). Should a person find this place and learn the trick to fix it to their Hara, so that Now-Being and Hara are at the same place and fixed, they become a Divine Being. A completed person with the full complement of intended attribute. It is a state that can not be achieved, only realized.

There are many other components that define and secure this place, give it a ceiling and a floor. It creates a window, a door, a narrow gate to an actual place, a world, a reality. A place to walk and be. I have walked there. In this post I will cover just one more component of Solomon’s Key, that is what I know this to be. A sphere surrounds the central point As you walk on the floor of the key the sphere moves freely in any direction and is,I think, as a force-field.

It is nice to be able to see this place again and recognize its components. Hopefully I will learn a more durable lesson this time. I am still trying to get back on the seat so I can drive this thing. You have to let go of everything to be able to do it. Sounds easy, doesn’t it?

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012

Opening The Gate

These days, as I have blogged my life back into existence, have been very powerful. My grip of resistance is loosening and the path becoming more clear. My willingness to open my life to public view has long been the magic I considered taboo. It is also the cup from which I knew I must drink. How to do what I will not do has been my dilemma. The answer is always the same to such conundrums. It is in just doing it. There is no other way and so it is really a question of how to get there. It is in honestly asking the question, how, that we one day find that we have answered it, by the fact of doing it. I do believe there is great magic in crossing this threshold. The once powerful pieces of my life are suddenly reenergized as I choose to make my self known. Like turning on a switch. It has been there on the wall the whole while and I have been instructed of the importance of turning it on. Choosing not to do it I pretend to be confused about what is holding me back. This I think has been the piece I would not put into place. Now I can once again reach Spirit Gate, my chakras fill with Justice, Light and I wonder what lessons will be revealed. (You can read about Light, Justice and Spirit Gate in my recent post Kundalini The Pillar Of Appointment).

There are some things I have wanted to learn and now it seems that they must be learned in public. I have thought to put the cart in front of the horse in this regard. I have wanted to get everything done before standing in the open. It is not to be. If I take the journey alone there is no one to share it with. I have been to the mountain, and of course, when I turned there was no one there as I had traveled alone. I have shared what I have seen, but now, I think the next power, what I have yet to learn, comes from standing in the open. My only choice, as I push ahead and open my life, is to let go of the tension. It is tough because this makes me really uncomfortable, to be so open. I am beginning to think I must take the gate altogether off and discard it. That the true source of my tension comes from working so hard to secure the gate.

Magic. What do I think of magic? I think I will release it by choosing instead of a gate, a vast and open space. A place where what actually is, is given permission to self-present without the imposition of preconceived restraint. Preconceptions, such as my long-held insistence that I must be very tense about what I see and hide it from the public discussion. You see, I believe everything is magical. That everything is made of magic and we are its masters. This is why it is so easy to deny it and pretend we are without influence. Admitting this is how things came to be we are responsible, pretending we do not see this, the magic is used instead to create that ruse. Magic is powerful. Using it collectively to create a ruse, well that is a tough nut. I have no intension of cracking it. Let us see if we can turn the magic loose and watch it dance. Will you take this walk with me?

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012

Why

Why do I write this stuff? If I had my druthers I would keep it all hidden, private. Some of these posts can really tear me up. Emotionally. I have always kept it private. A handful of people, who know me personally, have known something of it. Anymore my life just does not work if this is kept inside of me. That tears me up more than putting it out here. So you see it is a bit selfish, a way to keep my stress level down and that helps me manage my health. Maybe someday I will learn to let go a little and it seems that this work may be helping me with that as well. So there you have it, I am just trying to live my life and get from one day to the next.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012

Reality and Truth

Mysticism, for me, is visual. I see what lies beyond the veil. My habit is very methodical. I have an understanding of metaphysics and I puzzle together the pieces I have scattered about, to reach an understanding. I am not a scholar, I do not study text or doctrine, my confidence lies with the empiric nature of providence. My confidence rests entirely with God. Is God or is God naught? It makes no difference, my confidence lies squarely there. I have no use for faith.

My person is like a vessel suspended in limitless space and my bearing is entirely my own discretion. I determine the density of the veil and what I allow myself to see. I choose limitation’s or liberation’s and there is great confusion between the two. Confusion, of course, is not true, it is only real and reality is something we create.

I have known varying degrees of clarity in my mystical life. Just now I am in an episode of rehabilitation having stumbled into hardship. I do expect to puzzle together a durable clarity allowing the silliness of struggle to dissipate into the vastness of endless space.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012

Love and Magic

Love

The path of love is always the path that leads to worth. No matter what has happened, if things are good or bad. When I embrace my life, the good and the bad with love, a way is revealed. A path forward. It is the only path forward, there is no other way. Without love we are bound by its absence. All that is hurtful, painful. When I let love into the recesses where pain and hurt remain they lose their grip, their tension melts and the magic of a way forward is revealed. This is the secret of compassion, its spirit. Love. It is true magic.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012

Spirits of Darkness Spirits of Light

While Devils, Demons and Satans influence us we are distracted. There are better spirits. So long as we lend shelter to Demons and Satans, by maintaining our relations with our personal Devil or Devils, ignorance prevails. These spirits can only exist in the shadowy world of ignorance where we pretend we do not see them. We have to make that agreement with them and then every subsequent agreement gains instant ignorance. We are all agreed, that our condition, as human, will include this definition. So long as we support this agreement all spirits are affected by it.

I have long been content to keep my knowledge of spirits private. Some people believe in such and others are sure people who make such claims are being dishonest or they are not well. That there is some sort of psychological deficiency. This blog has emboldened me. I have seen these spirits so believing they exist is not much of a stretch. What else am I to do when they make themselves known? I suppose I could imagine that I am not well but I know that I am. Better to ask just what is going on. That is the path I have chosen and so I write about my observation. About what I have seen.

It is easy to slip back into ignorance. There are many persuasions and encouragements. I have done it. The adhesive quality of ignorance assures that any contact with it begins to entangle us immediately. It is a choice and when things are difficult it seems the easiest way. Admittedly I have never been entirely free of ignorance, it is a project that takes time and commitment. I will compare it to a building project, a temple if you will or another favorite, a path and a narrow gate. A habit of choice that reveals a condition, a way or a place to be.

I am working to restore my standing with the good spirits. With Angels, Ascendant Beings, Deva, whatever else is there. I see the shadows roaming my spiritual landscape inviting me to give chase and I must choose to let them go if I would stand in the light and make good spirits my spiritual companions. It is real work but everything spiritual is work, until the temple is complete or the journey realized. It is just our choice and choice is magic. It does create. At least that has been my observation. I have had that experience.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012

Mirror Image

I will write again about the fourth chakra using the mirror simile. I am not a scholar but rather a mystic. I have made a very brief and casual study of the chakra’s and did read a few paragraphs about the Kundalini, two and a half or three decades ago. I am mystic and I do what I call mysticism’s. I discover that there is something I am to do and set about trying to see what it is. From there I will pull one word at a time from the void and write it down until an idea begins to take shape. It is only when I finish the work that it is clear what I am doing. It is the same way I write this blog. Years ago I did a mysticism of the seven primary chakra’s. They are the focus of my spiritual work today and this blog is about that work.

The fourth chakra is as a mirror. A mirror we can step into and control. The integrity born of truth is the secret the allows me to take this step. As I gaze into the mirror unable to secure my passage the images it reveals show me the way. The way I am and the burden that anchors me on the outside of my destiny. The burden, or wealth, that will not make this passage are the lies that I have told myself. The falsehoods about how I am and who is to blame. I am free to learn the lessons the mirror reveals and discover my true nature, dressing the image I see to resemble that image. It is this work that gains passage. When the image I see is true I become the image in the mirror and the fourth chakra becomes a passage, no longer a mirror. This is the magical nature of who we are.

Once I remember my future, my destiny, letting go of the false-comforts that restrain me I am free to make how I am be who I am. While my gaze is fixed on the image I only see how I am and who I am provides the image, to teach me, from the other side of the mirror. This is providence. Should I choose to make the image, seen here in the temporal world, that of my teacher from the other side of the fourth chakra, the higher chakra’s reign into human form and spiritual life has a temporal reality.

That is the life of this mystic. Just now I am still working on it and that of course creates paradox. It is working on it that prevents or prohibits success. At some point I must accept that there is no work to do, that destiny is now and how I am is who I am.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012

The Habits of Being

Projection Project

The habits of my being are comprised of three rules; objectivity, incentive and approval. These rules are applied to everything I am, creating how I consider what I allow myself to be. I use these rules to reveal or to hide my true being.

The intimacy of a woman, with child, is the most fundamental conversation. There is no need for words but the mechanisms required to structure our self are hard at work. We begin the process of self-representation while entirely dependent on another. Our sense of objectivity is obscured by the extremely subjective nature of our circumstance. It takes time to grow and realize our independent nature. Even when we think we have done this the intimacy of the dependency that we experienced in the womb and as a baby, toddler etc stays with us. We first fashion our tools of identity, of self, at this early time and they are the underlying tide, the conversation with community that gives us our appointment of self recognition. We project through a lens of disposition and attitude the person others see and they in turn reflect it back at us. Words are secondary to this process but this is the conversation we are having. This is communication. It is very real but real need not be true.

Objectivity having been obscured by the subjective nature of conception, birth and childhood our sense of incentive is also skewed. For anything at all to happen, approval is granted and we create how we are. How, for this topic, can be considered in terms of value. The value we place on our experience creates the exchange that presents our self. It is the things that I value, habits, behaviors, beliefs that I pin myself to. Even if these are of a poor nature, bad for me, if I value them, choose them, they come to be the way I fix my self. The conversation, silent and wordless, by which we present our self emphasizes the importance of community. Community can be as a siren tempting us to build our self away from our true self. Should I decide to discover my true self and build my identity based on that, I only need objectivity. Another word for objectivity is compassion. Compassion does not exist without objectivity and compassion is absolute because it only exists in a measure that is inexhaustible. It is this absolute quality that makes possible the expression of my true self because truth is also absolute. No matter the challenge truth remains unchanged. It is omnipotent.

We also project the imaginings we craft of other people and these images are influential. While these imaginings portend to be about others what are in fact about is our own considerations which are in turn reflected back to us reaffirming our own craft. We have imaginings about all manner of things and project images that we then expect accurately present the true content of experience. We have a community of consent and form broad agreements. This is how we craft reality and while it is true that we imagine things to be a certain way and form broad agreements our imaginings do not need to be truth-based. I expect that largely the truth is lost in our imaginings and consent. The experience we imagine is peppered with incentive and reward for approval but what is lost is objectivity. Our true nature, which is obscured is also absolute. Regardless of what we foist upon it, it remains unchanged, unharmed, as truth can suffer no injury. Objectivity is marked by what is absolute and so it is as a key that can unlock the narrow gate and reveal our true nature.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2012