Spirit Puppet

We are spiritual beings and it has been my observation that much of our engagement is of a spiritual nature. For the most part this goes unnoticed, or more accurately, we ignore it. Our spirits mingle and we form the parameters by which we are understood by others as well as our self. These arrangements form perception, and we consider our self, and are considered by others, by the subtlety our spirit self in concert with the whole of our spirit community. Truth is, except for our ignorance, there is nothing subtle about the spirit world we share. We share a consensus of pretence by which we collectively ignore the spirit world that is inseparable from us. The subtlety of the spirit world has to do with a subtlety, or relaxation of mind, by which the spirit world is recognizable. A relaxation of perception by which a person might become aware of spirit.

Spirits are a constant presence in our lives. They are what animate us and give us life, we are known by a spiritual composition recognizable and representative of our animal presence, yet, the spirit world is very loosely tethered to the animal and is as a matrix that structures what is considered to be as well as how things are considered to be. That in turn determines what is allowed or considered possible. We tend to have a go along to get along approach to our spiritual reality. When we are agitated our spiritual surroundings amplify, or broadcast it. When we are settled, content, our spirit surroundings are as well. Disposition and attitude are as the sirens who call spirit to the gravity that is our animal and then maintain the spiritual filter through which we consider reality. In the human community there is a constant dialog, a spiritual dialog that maintains the status quo. It is from this status that change is introduced or the status is maintained.

To change the agreements, by which reality is considered, a discussion is needed. Most of that discussion is between spirit representations of our animal presence. Thoughts, words, actions, shared between people, stir the spirit and spirit negotiates. This activity can be observed and I do observe it. I see and recognize the spiritual representations of the people I am involved with. If my perception of this is true, then it is what we all do, but it would seem to be a largely ignored activity. We let spirit do the talking while we do the walking and very few recognize their spirit, its activity, and the communal spiritual reality we share.

I developed my spiritual sensitivity decades back. In the years since I experienced a personal betrayal that lasted for several years. That affected my attitude and I have yet to fully recover. I expect my incomplete recovery is due to misplacement. No one can betray me, I can only betray myself, regardless of the efforts of others. The structure of pain and injury is difficult to unravel and it is never quite clear how we are holding on to it until we let it go. One of the detriments of my injured attitude is my response to the spirit world. On noticing a spirit presence, I react, by exclaiming “What do you want!” The punctuation is not in error. I am not asking the spirit presence a question, I am just irritated by the constant reminder that I am out of sync spiritually.

This blog is an attempt to grow out of my injured attitude and restore myself to good spiritual health. To be comfortable spiritually and grow success from my spirit. Spirit sees in the dark as it knows no darkness. The animal knows darkness and can not see. It longs for what is familiar, as a comfort, even if it hurts. The spirit would lead but the animal must follow and the only place to go is where we already are. To be here now and let the past and the future go. We create the past and the future but when we hold on to them they pull us away from creativity, from now, the only time known to exist.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2014

The Room With No Door

As a child, I knew, what the adults in my life imagined were imaginary friends. As an adult, I have had young children introduce me to their ‘imaginary’ experience. One such event stands out. At the time I was working with a crystal ball. It has been my experience that quartz often collects energy but this piece shed energy. It was very energetic but did not collect energetic imprints. I was visiting family and staying in a home with a toddler who had yet to learn to talk. She enjoyed playing with the ball and we played with it together. While doing this she was able to communicate with me. Completely nonverbal. Very cool. She wanted to know if I could see what she could see and she introduced me to a wild, very active, group of quite small energies. Like a bunch of tiny persons who were non-terrestrial, or at least, had no physical form. She clearly wanted to see if I would acknowledge their existence and I did. I have been unable to reach a determination as to what they were.

The child I mentioned is now a young woman, and while very imaginative, she has no recollection of her ‘imaginary’ childhood acquaintances.

What is it that separates us from this childhood reality that seems so common? Might this childhood experience be spiritual and might these spirits expect us to remember them, for us to invite them to join us as adults? I think they are and they do. It is as if we leave them in another room and then build a new house without that room. There is a casual joyful happiness that children often have that is uncommon in the adult world we make for ourselves. I think there is a relationship between the spiritual experience of young children and their often casual sense of joy and happiness. We are forgetful and we tend to leave both of these dispositions in our early childhood, usually forgetting we ever were this way and unable to remember the way. To replicate it as adults. Why?

I think much of it is cultural. Here in the west we conquered the shamanistic, earth-based, spiritual practices of our ancestors. Often with extreme brutality. We tend not to value personal spiritual experience and instead expect a socially centralized compartment for our spiritual concerns. We expect that our spiritual life is best-managed by others. That some authority, outside of our self, is in charge. We expect that we need the guidance and intervention of others to be spiritually content. We assign our spiritual well-being to false authorities, someone other than our self. I don’t know that if shamanistic sensibilities had won the day, that our spiritual concerns would be less centralized. None-the-less, western culture diminishes the importance of personal spiritual experience and places spiritual authority outside of personal experience. We are expected to rely on an external groupthink authority. We think the truth can be written down and fixed in place. Words, written or otherwise, can only hope to convey a thought or a feeling and are neither. Truth, to be of actionable value, needs to be personally experienced. It is the message that is not spoken or written down. Words allude to it but it makes itself understood.

How do we bring, into our distracted reality, a more comprehensive understanding of reality? As adults, we dismiss what we consider to be imaginary childhood experience. Having long ago dismissed, and forgotten, our own experience, as well as how to recover it, we enforce this norm against our children. It is an obvious act of ignorance, to dismiss such a common experience as being, not only imaginative, but also make-believe. We might first accept that it is an experience that is very common. These are real experiences but what is the cause? Do we generate the experience or is it a straight forward observation of what does exist? It has been my personal observation that it is both. Much of this spiritual realm, we create, by having been imbued with creative authority. The charge we are given, the charge I believe I am given, is to create a state that is suitable for my soul. To create a gravity, of my temporal being, that attracts the spirit that is my soul, a more durable representation of awareness, sentiency, being and existence. A truer me. It is this spiritual expression, my soul, that would have me invite it to be me. It wants to walk as I do in the company of men and women. The temporal person, I have created, to walk in the company of men and women, feels threatened, after all, what is it when flesh blood and bone are returned to dust? This anxiety, generated by our brief appearance as terrestrial lifeforms, is then as an armor that shields us from our soul. We feel threatened.

I am beginning to think that the path to the mountaintop is happiness. To restore the happiness that embraced me as a young child. This happiness resides in the same place that I knew as a child. It is not so much a memory to restore as it is a place to return to. Its residence is not fixed to time and it waits for us to return, or to create, the gravity by which it is known.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2014

The Gravity of Being

Transitioning from a guarded spiritual experience to one of openness, I must be at spiritual ease, even among those who can not accept what I experience. To make public the experience of spirit, establishing in every opportunity of community, the spiritual and the terrestrial being.

Between terrestrial life, its beginning and its end, is life. Flesh without its spirit is dead and we have no evidence our spirit expires with our dead body. We do imagine that our body, being animated and with spirit, is that spirit. It is not. It knows our spirit and our spirit is part of a spiritual community. The spiritual awareness we have, as terrestrial beings, tends to be limited, distracted by our gross nature. Our animated form is dead except for its spirit. There is an inherent anxiety in that. When I consider nature, there is a consistency that I am drawn to; gravity. I imagine a cellular gravity and it creates polarities, movement, electricity, chemical reaction, etc. I have not studied the science of this but am quite certain that some gravity, perhaps by a different name, a different understanding, is at play. What I see is gravity, by whatever name. I see gravity as fundamental, a theme that is basic in all that is known to exist. A constant that must be expressed and respected. The being, that is the bearing of a terrestrial life form, creates a gravity that attracts a spirit.

Of terrestrial life there is a temporary being that mimics spirit. We form, I believe, a temporal gravity of being, or beings. This community then mimics the spiritual community of which we belong displacing it and we create reality.

I have seen spirits that are without terrestrial form. I do not think that is particularly unusual. Young children, I think, are particularly receptive to the spiritual life that we are connected to. It does not take long to get distracted. We develop other concerns and a gravity that works to fulfill those concerns. We can return to our spiritual orientation, developing a gravity that sheds barriers to spirit and draws to us the community of which our spirit heralds. It seems that this effort, in human social environments, has an ‘original’ handicap. That handicap is the social environment and its gravity that drew us, as children, away from spiritual concerns and acquaintances. By this process our bearing became fixed to physiologic-social concerns. Bearing creates gravity. This gravity, centered on physical needs, collects and in turn separates us from our spiritual origin. Drawing the expressions of our spirit-origin into human social circumstance, requires a gravity, that is unusual but no less ordinary than any other human activity.

By creating a bearing, the intention to do such a thing, gravity begins. If the bearing is true, and remains true, it creates an environment of both terrestrial and spiritual beings. The subtleties of doing this can not be overstated. It is not an achievement. There can not be sense of achievement. No merit. That tends to be quite contrary to the bearing we develop as we build the identity that becomes our terrestrial person.

I am between the private comfort of spiritual acquaintance and a casual openness, accepting the rationals that would challenge my spiritual experience, while simultaneously enjoying spiritual living. To greet skepticism with approval and not feel oppressed. A comfort in being spiritually aware and humanly engaged, simultaneously, without serving as a partition between the two. A casual comfort or bridge willing to engage, or not, all the while being fully engaged. I think this middle ground, I seek, is where I will once again know the casual comfort of non-terrestrial spiritual beings.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2014

The Marshal Plan

Commitment to a cause, to an objective, marshals support, forging it without questioning, from anything imagined or real. This is a fundamental construct. You can see it play out in the lives of all people. Regardless of what our success is, this lies beneath it and whatever our condition is, that is our success. Understanding this is indispensable as we work to become as we would choose to be. The power of suggestion, wanting things to be compliant, proof of our position, can not be overstated. It is in understanding this authority that we can best manage possibility. Things may not be the way we expect, the way we have decided that they are. Even when our considerations are not true, we will marshal the support we need, to believe. In considering existence, experience, from my mystical perspective, this awareness is also a fundamental construct.

Could anything be different than it in fact is?  There is a certain omnipotence about this. There is an absence of mystery. Things are as they are and can be no other way. We are, and so, not only can we understand how things are, we would not exist without being in a state that is an expression of that understanding. Can a person know everything? I say it is impossible not to know everything. What we can not do is own it and knowledge, often, is the lie of ownership. The expectation that of some sophistication I can become more. Words being only words, there are other ways to consider knowledge aside from ownership. Acquaintance for example. The knowing that is acquaintance is not the knowledge that is ownership. It is passive, accepting, matter of fact. It relies on a sense of appointment which gives it passivity, from that, acceptance, and the objectivity that is ‘matter of fact’. This posture can be applied to any activity and the underlying lesson is revealed. Life’s lessons need not be learned. We can spiral round and round our appointment without ever reaching it. It is the appointment itself, Providence, that is the engine of possibility.

Fulfilling my life, personally and socially, by being actively mystic, needs my sustained effort and interest to succeed. This iteration of my identity, being fleshed out as I develop the Mystic Tourist, is different from anything I have done. I have always expected I would have to make a life absent any barrier between my personal spirituality and my social reality. It has never been clear as to how I would do it and now I find I am doing it. I am a surprised by what I am willing to write and publish here on my blog. I am an ordinary, run-of-the-mill person, with a driving interest in human spirituality. Its dominant influence leaves me no escape and I am left to choose it or be in certain conflict. I have known plenty of conflict concerning this issue and its remnants are with me still. This is my way out, to silence the conflict by taking up the task and let it thrive, or die, by its own measure. It is win win for me, I get the monkey off my back in exchange for a unique education. I have expected that I would make this happen so I am not without ideas, but this evolution of self, is uncharted. I have known satisfaction in my spiritual life and have had a very rich spiritual life experience. I considered that to be largely private. The only conflict I have ever had in all of this is the notion that I would, make public, my personal spiritual experience. That is the crux. All of the conflict in my life stems from it.

I have written of Demons, Devils, Satans. Of their behaviors, their appearance and my personal experience of them. I have written of Angels, Ascendant Beings, Deva. Of their appearance, behaviors and my personal experience of them. There is an intimacy in that. I could not be more personal and the voice inside of me that has long protested my doing just this, does not know where to go. I have destroyed its refuge.

This effort will result in my being able to experience spirituality in social environments or it will fail. My quest is empirical. I am sure that our spiritual nature is not secret. There is no need to join the right club, to be familiar with the right doctrine and purchase, by faith, the right dogma. True spirituality, for me, is independent of doctrine, dogma and religion. It must be without these boundaries if it is to have any promise.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2014

The Last Satan

Well I have reached the end of my outing of the Satans and it feels good. There was a time that they made me nervous, uneasy, and maybe they still should. I see them as the great usurpers. They have no power except what we give them. No matter, whatever they are, even if they are just a psychological tool I fashioned for my personal growth; they are. Whatever capabilities they have remain as they were regardless of my activity. I see them, and when I do, I work to dismiss them and there is real power in that. It works. It changes my life.

As a mystic I believe that spiritual realities can be understood and that is as an all-encompassing, singular motivation, in my life. I believe I see the spiritual world and that there is a personal value in sharing my experience. So I do.

There is but one type of Satan that remains for me to flesh out, for my benefit, as well as the curiosity of those of you who are interested. It has no name that I know of and that is a curiosity I will not pursue here. This one, disguises itself in two ways. You could call it a Trojan Horse. You can not see it because it is thin, as a piece of paper. It is an envelope and contains a vast collection of satanic energy in the form of a variety of Satans and Demons. When we encounter this one we see it as an acquaintance, a person we know and the envelope is passed to us. There are tricks that enable this. Ignorance concerning our acquaintance is one way and another is false associations we make about the person. Both of these postures, of considering another person, create shadows and that darkness allows for the movement of Satans.

The alternative to this posture of shadows is to accept all persons as they are. To make an observation of who and how without projecting false judgements or turning a blind eye. If we manage a state of honest objectivity, deception fails. Our spiritual and psychological health thrives and things are seen as they are.

The shadows and darkness in our lives, we create, and they in turn are haunted by the creatures that live there. We can create a life, a place for our self, free of shadows and darkness, where things are seen as they are. When we do this providence is more pronounced and the understandings and activities that best serve us are more apparent.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2013

His Name is Ikisat

I feel safe  thinking that nearly all people are familiar with the story of Adam and Eve. That a serpent tempted Eve and she in turn shared the forbidden fruit with Adam. The fruit of the Tree of Knowledge. Well Ikisat is such a Satan, a serpent. There is no Satan more intimate than a serpent. The serpent occupies our person through the eyes, the mouth, the ears, any orifice will do, he is a serpent and that is their nature. They cloud our vision, corrupt our speech, distort what we hear, punish us sexually and otherwise injure our vital physiologic functions. There is no more corrupting influence than Ikisat the serpent.

It is difficult to have any clarity of matters spiritual when one is keeping Ikisat as a companion. Satans would persuade us to ignore our spiritual worth and heritage. They displace it with their influence. They are after all spiritual beings but they are without grace and would deny us grace by our association with them. We must agree to associate with them but these agreements are made when we are distracted. We have no recollection of them or the Satans with whom we mingle. This is what separates us from spiritual freedom and clarity, our choice, albeit it out of ignorance, to associate with Satans.

So what to do rid ourselves of such an influence, the resident serpent? Ask it to leave. Advise the serpent that you wish to dissolve the association. They are not inclined to do it but if you persist, they have no choice. In these matters the power and authority of choice rests with us. That is how it all started and how it persists.

There is a tendency to be frightened of Satans. We have imagined them other than they are. They have no power. They influence us, that is true, but they only influence us to make a choice. Often a choice we are unaware of. It is those choices and where they lead that endanger us.

These are spiritual matters and I am a mystic. I see things in spiritual terms. I am doing my best to communicate what I see for whatever it is worth. Tomorrow I expect to complete my exposé of the five types of Satan I am aware of. Thank you for reading.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2013

Arazyal Prince of Darkness

Darkness. There is a Satanic presence that is darkness and against a background of darkness, it is invisible, unseen. One such Satan is named Arazyal. It may be that all Satans can assume this form but today it is Arazyal who takes notice. In my mind, I imagined the name to be Yazassal but decided to consult The Book of Enoch and discovered the name that I was looking for, Arazyal.

Ignorance is the only shelter Arazyal needs and then he is very close and personal. Imagining, pretending he is not there, this kind of Satan is right at home, within us, in the darkness of our own mind. This type builds things there using only suggestion. As is always the case with Satans, we do all the work for them, they only wield influence. The structures we build with them, are structures made of sand, it takes a constant effort to keep them standing and repaired. Without this effort the shadows recede and this Satan is forced to search for darker pastures.

All of the various types of Satans work in tandem. Relentless. The longer we entertain their influence, the more difficult it becomes to distinguish their presence. We really do come to see things as they do, or, more accurately, as they want us to.

I am not sure that it makes a great deal of difference what Satans do. I am quite certain that many of us survive their influence without ever knowing of them. There are countless ways to mitigate their influence. My curiosity and life is such that I need to know. I can consider all of this in many ways but what I write about here is the spiritual landscape that I see as I walk from the shadows into the light. It is in considering all of this, as I do, that I can dismiss it. In recognizing the structure and habit of negative thought, as being separate from who I am, I see these Satans working to make permanent negative trajectories and conditions. When I see it is their agenda that I have enabled, letting it go becomes a simpler task and I can separate influence from action in the subtle recesses of my existence.

Tomorrow, another Satan to betray. Betrayal is their craft and it is in observing them that the darkness and shadow they rely on is vacated. Our contract with them depends on our ignorance. Ignorance is the coin that assures their presence and withholding it betrays our agreement with them.

Michael, The Mystic Tourist ©2013